Catch me when i fall,

2007-07-08T01:48:00.001+08:00

i could spend my whole life with lips like urs,
maybe thats what heaven is all about,
*

quoted from zhen's

BUZZZZZ-
louis vuitton is love to Sara.
Sara is love to me.
Can I be louis vuitton?
HAHA! Random okay.

x

i love zhenny, my sweetest suckaaaa,
(: (: im sorry for always spoiling your
study plans okay? but i kno you love seeing meee,
cos im sara and youre siewzhen and here you
will stay, in my heart forever and ever,
weee ! yes yes my dear touch ass,
that freeeking $6 card is all for you LA,
:D haha,

and LV is sosizzlingsexz pls, zomg,
makes me go SO weak in the kneees,
i mustmustmust become a rich taitai in the future,
and i will OWN all my khakis in mahjong,
then proceed to desperately fanning myself while
flaunting my 10 carat diamond rings to everybody,
muhahaha !
(: (:
*

anyhows,
i just got off the line with girlfriend,
she ah, make me happy only la, (:
had a walk down memory lane and
we both indulged in reminiscence, yep
got reminded of all the bullshitz we did,
hahaha (:

it kinda just dawn upon me that those days are so over,
i dont really want to lose my starry notion,
but i guess ... if we cant have the best of everything,
we shall make the best out of all that we have (:
yeap, sticking to that phrase ! (:
*

and heartfelt thanks to those who ve been there with me,
right in my heart and deep in my bones,
sometimes, to be happy, we really have to turn a deaf
ear to all the negative comments people have to say about you,
cos come to think about it, shit happens,

you get judged by the things you do
and the things you havent, so yeah,
we just have to learn how to be a
better person after each phase! (:

:D
x

2007-07-04T22:10:00.001+08:00

makes me wonder sometime,
why do people do what they do,

do we have a mind of our own after all,
when we commit sins do we think twice ?
do we judge people by the things they have done,
or the things they have not done,

but its my own sky,

*

uncertain signs need certain truths,
you said you want to be closer to the stars,
yesterday you were too young,
tomorrow you ll be too old,
a new found mentality ?
but your mind is always one track,

*

will you love me once again,
when im covered with dirt,
when i looked even more unlovely,
will you love me once again,

or will you seek the finer things in life ?
*

2007-07-02T19:03:00.001+08:00

past few days have indeed been really eventful,
(: enjoyed myself thoroughly and yeah,
just uploaded tons of photos into my computer,

yepyep,
my pictorial post ! (:

i swam with the sharkks ! (:

*

and guess what i went for on Saturday ! (:

firstly, met up with 2 of my loveeee,

indecisive people,

victoria <3

lunched @nydc with victoria and brens, :)
caught fantastic 4 <: <: superb movie! <:
had to leave them after awhile bcossss ..

YES ! sg vs australia (:

hahaah, even though the final result was
rather disappointing ( 3-0 austria's game )
the whole match was reaaaally exciting,
was squealing and squirming on my seat,

the crowd was amazing tooo,
at the end of the game, most of the sg supporters
around me were doing the 11 clap thingy
and shouting "BUTO " at the end,
damnnn funny, hahha, i think buto means
dick in malay if im not wrong,
<: <:

stadium's closing ceremony was amazingg <:
just look at the sudden outburst of colours,
the beautiful letdown of fireworks, <:
they switched off all the lights in the stadium,
mighty cool,

and we got to take a picture with the heavy weight champ
back in the 70s, i dont kno what his name is,
but alot of people were crowding around him,
so yeah, we didn wana miss the chance as well,
kiasu singaporeans *coughs

oh, i especially likee the last part of my day ah,
:D

anyway, i saw shimma as well,
back from xtina augeleira's concert,
that girl is really impossible lar,
even her tshirt says " xtina's #1 fan "
you go girl :D !

*

and yesterday !
can you believe it,
i got dragged to this by mom,

anugerah skirin 2007,

yes, i actually fell for it cos she
started the day by buying me a pair of new heels,

its gold in colourrrrr,
how to resist right ?

so we stood there amongst the huge crowd of people,
and i was desperately fanning myself cos the weather
was sooo hot, i cant believe i was actually there,

alrightey, but i will have to admit,
seeing mum happy makes me really happy as well (:

and seeeeee,
i think this guy has quite alot of potential,

yesyes, im bias lar,
its his dimples right, hahaha.
what to do ? dimples are so charming laa,
:)

caught transformers after that, a must-watch,
graphics are reaaaaly cool,
gon be worth your every dime and penny ! (:

*

last paper in 2 days time, (:
just that bittt more Aseven ! <: <:
yeah man :D

aight takecare loveys :)
missing alot of my sweethearts,

2007-06-29T13:18:00.001+08:00

.: twisted games,

aight ! (:
im pretty sure all Asevens are enjoying the period right
now bcos our next paper, which happens to be the final
one as well ( thank God) takes place only
1 week later, yipppe doooo !
:D :D :D.

so yepp, Su and i went swimming yesterday ! (:
the others came and joined us after that
and we went to the jacuzzi and then the sauna,
the temperature went up to 62 degrees and
i shriveled up like a loser raisin inside
the sauna, damn the SWEAT, i was sweating like
crazy,

but everything's so relaxing, :)
and a series of really funny events had
to happen to sue, hahahah, okok,
i shant laughhh,

pictures with Su ! will upload them asap,
<: <:

anyway, for my friends who are wondering,
my colon's not getting any better,
medication aint helping and i dont kno
about those massages, cos .. it tends to hurt
even more after each session, so i dread going la,

but oh wells, we will see how things go :)

on a side note,
it suddenly dawned upon me that i could have
sprouted lots of nonsense last night on the phone,
i tend to blabber gibberish when im just awake,
especially after really long sleeps,
cos you kno' .. sub-conscious mind takes overr ah,
now im so embarassed, (z!)

ahhhh, aight, im stopping here,
gon head out ! (:
till then, takecare lovelys <: <:

2007-06-25T20:23:00.001+08:00

edited.

2am right now,
and my colon's hurting like crazy :<

*

do click on the above songgg,
its reaaaly nice <: <:

*

dimples are so charming,
* pokes cheek, <:

okayyyy, tomoro's the start of my exams,
and i still have thousands to cover for
economics, well done Sara,
God Please Bless Me. <: <:

still, good luck to all taking their exams
tomro, <: <: okayyy, ima go back to memorize
those demand and supply stuffs already,
was up till 3am last night trying my best
to understand geography's concept,

sometimes, it really makes me wonder if
3 years means a more relaxed life or
a more detailed compilation of notes to
understand and memorize,

oh wells,
gotta keep it going Sara (:

*
and each time i look at you,
i never fail to see something new,
it takes me higher than before
& it makes me want you even more,

2007-06-24T00:28:00.000+08:00

i never kno' when it will all end suddenly,
but be assure that each time you decide to arrive,
i be more than willing, just like tonight,
xx

princess, says:
i must practice self discipline already

:Bv leesiewchen! says:
haha

:Bv leesiewchen! says:
good.(:

:Bv leesiewchen! says:
need cane tell me,

very funny huh zhenny <3,
<: <: <:
x

anywayyyy,
ive got my SIM card back alreadyy ! (: (: (:

do check this out ! <:
will definitely put a smile on your face,
the cutesttttt thing ever, <:
courtesy of sean ! (: (:
*

really nice pictures taken today,
<: <:

haha,

yes yes, nice scenery i kno (:

streets of chinatown,

picture of the day ! <:

well, i love you girlfriend,
love doing all the silly things with you,
<: <: you kno' the best is yet to be,
so come grow old with me ! (:

*

g;irlfren please take goodcare of yourself,
thanks for accompanying me to support my
lil prince charming even thou you were down
with fever and serious sinus already (:

so yeaaaap,
was busy with this in the afternn,

one minute of fameeeee ! (:

yepyep, never mind the other contestants who
were worth all the hoohaa, my lil jerome is in it,
your charming and hot quarter finalist,
uh -huh (:

(: my lil prince charming,
jiejie's sooo proud of you okay, <:
you kno' you look so HOT today, (and every other day,)
with your blue sexy vest and irresistable dimples (:

my lil prince charming sang this song from high sku musical,
cant remember the title, but i was sooo amazed
at how he worked the stageeee altogether, awwww,

was screaming and waving jerome's name all around,
together with my other sweethearts, lil sean and samuel,

hahha, and mum's so cuteeeee right, branda ? (:

forever and ever babe (: youre the best mum !

*

youve got to be some kind of special,
fact #23 : sara loves it when you call for the simplest reason,
even if it means having to hear you bath for 20 mins (:

2007-06-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

felza ( scissor paper PIAK ) just sent me his version of
Its All About You - Mcfly (:
and its soooo nicely done, i wana put it up here,
but i have no idea howww, any kind souls willing to teach?
(:

right anyway,
i lost my phone loveys :( left it in the toilet,
so, i guess itd be quite impossible to contact me for now,
but if everything goes well, i might get back my
SIM card tomro (: yepyep !

currently browsing thru the net for new sexy phones,
hahaha, not going to make a big fuss about my loss,
but i guess, what im really upset about is still ..
ah meng - whos from someone reaaly special and my messages,
:(

ouch, those 200+ messages always puts a smile on my face laaaa,
now, no moreeeee :(

still, i wana thank everybody who tried helping
the ever so absent-minded sara find her fone, (: (:

byebye panasonic VS6, youve been a great fren !
always there for me, to share my happiness and woes,
hahaha .. sory for always throwing you around each
time i get annoyed (:

and HELLO SEXY NEW FONES WANNABE,
lg chocolate red, s500i, yummmmyyy !
LG's new prada KE850 is gorgeous,
and of courseeee, n76 loooook <: <:

sosizzlinghot ey?
spoiltforchoices ! spoiltforchoices !
<: <:
*

its you i see amongst the crowd,

2007-06-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

as we grow up, we learn that even the one person
that wasn supposed to let us down, probably will,
you will have your heart broken, probably more than
once, and its going to get harder everytime,
but you will break hearts too, so remember how it felt
when someone broke yours, you will fight with your
best fren, maybe even fall in love with them,

you will blame a new love for things an old one did,
you will cry because time is passing too fast
and you will eventually lose someone close to you,
so take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love
like youve never been hurt, because every 60 seconds
you spend angry or upset, is a minute of happiness,
you will never get back,

(:

sara's current favourite song,
Beautiful Girls - Sean Kingston,
please spare a few minutes to let it load,
you have my word, its damnn goooddd,
<: <:
-

your dirty habits,

((:

aight, its 1.06am right now, got home not long ago,
hm, today's a thursday, which means its a turbo-charged day,
which also means sara's going to ground herself
and lock herself in the room and studystudystudy,
ahaha, lets hope that really happens ahhh <:

right, just finished watching jaychou's ting mama de hua MV,
gosh, those powerpack dimples and tiny lil cute eyes,
and amazing talents, how to resist ahhhhh ?! (: (: (:
and the best part is ; ive seen him thrice in person before,
so lucky right, * claps claps,

hm, i suddenly feel like climbing trees and plucking fruits,
and picking up flowers and catching butterflies,
shall we ? my marked adulation,

X

today's flyy .... hm ~~but.~~
my stomach acid always finds a way
to get right into me, emotions run deeeeep ey,
try discerning what my thoughts elucidate,
*

... and look wat ive got here !

so cute rightttt,
definitely put a smile on sara's face <:
okayyy, ive decided to make it my virtual pet already !
the name shall be princess hoho, (:

alrightt,
goodnight goodnight <3

spongebobsquarepants ! <:

2007-06-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

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sarasarasarasarayiiiiiiishuuuuuuhuaaaaa.

:Bv leesiewchen! says:
my love.(:

( hahahaha awww, siewzhen my <3 too ! )
<: <: <:
*

emotions that transcend understanding,
killing me softly -
xx

today's studying session was productive, (:
manage to complete yet another set of geog notes,
yes, i kno im falling behind, especially
when theres still so much more to study,
but im trying my best to do whatever
i can with the remaining time already,
so yep, gotta keep it going sara ! (: (:

and really, i cant be more proud of myself today,
cos i finally get to meet shihuiwhossosupercute -
and ..... see see see (:

uhhuh, i actually drew the whole tectonic cycle out,
cant remember for how many times i did that but somehow,
im sorta getting the hang of it already, hahhaha,
and although it irks me alot whenever i think about
the remnants of what i still have to cover,
when i should already have done that, long long time ago,
ewww ew ewww, but its oooohhhhh - kayyyyy,
keep it goingggg !

if i cant have the best of everything,
il make the best out of everything i have,
(:

i sneaked into lyn's room last night,
once again, she made me realised soo many things,
both good and bad, yep yep,
shant say anymore (:

ima hit the sack now,
goodnight loveys <3

goodnight amazingshern,

2007-06-18T10:26:00.000+08:00

youre just way too beautiful,
xx

yep, the past couple of days were eventful !
to say the least, considering the fact
that my midyear is just 1 week away,
yes,

so ditto said,
"for a person whose exam's just a week away,
you lead quite an eventful life,"
nope, not something comforting,
but ..... coming back to where i was,

met up with girlfriend on the 16th, <:
and we went on a field trip, haha,
greeted all the places w our raucous laughter,
and although the dismal of weather
conditions left us greatly disappointed,
we still had our fair share of funnn <:

((:

yepyep ! so after that,
i went to meet mommy at tampines,
my relatives actually organized a function
over at changi beach, so cool right !
there were 6 tents pitched just for all of us,
and i slept with mum in the tent,
we spent the whole night just talking and talking
about everything, mom's just the best,
love you mummy <3

anyway,
changi beach's so beautiful both at night
and in the morning,

and the midnight fone call was refreshing,
hm its been quite awhile after all yep,
(: (: (:

*

heading out to study laters,
im driven to study, <:
thanks to a special person, ((:
hm lets hope this mugging spirit last,

2007-06-15T22:33:00.001+08:00

so the stories were right ?
so much so for falling in,
was it deficiency on my part,

well, look how they all flow, uninterrupted,

now whos the ultimate wash-out,
xx

great day today, <: <:
'cept for a lil mishap both me and zhen
met while we were studying at lido,
but its okay, no more trauma !

yepp, we left lido after the mishap,
lil disgruntled but ... were glad
we got out of that place, fast enough, haha,

sweetie,

bite size sweetie,

sweetie and tinkerbelle, <3

headed to bishan macs after that,

<:

same same, (:

same expression, i kno, heh

and highlight of the day ?

uk funfair ! (:

i love you zhen,

so pretty yeah,

picture of the dayyyyy, amazing scenery i kno, SPOT ME!

we chilled from dawn to dusk,

uh huh,

amazing lightings, yes, (:

last but not least,

my sweethearts (:

i love you zhen,
and i love all those cosmopolitan talks,

uk funfair is the shitz, reaaaalllyy,
meeting gfriend tomro ! <: <: <:

dont hate the game, hate the player,

2007-06-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

am i suppose to ride this surge with you ?
i dont want to listen to lil stories in circles,
what do they kno' anyway,
when things are wrong, only you can do me right,
and no one does it better than you,
xx

im almost too lazy to function,
its getting on my nerves,

i need to be slam with cold hard facts,

sara will mug hard ! sara will sara will,

and hello to sweethearts reading this,
do mug hard too yep, (: (: (:

2007-06-13T21:45:00.001+08:00

<3

Su, thanks for just being there with me tonight,
thanks for the hug and thanks for hugging me
a lil tighter, Su, i love you, (:

its funny how two girls from two really
different backgrounds can come together
and hit it off like bosom pals,

no, it wasnt really a right-from-the-start thing,
to start with, sue's like the tough girl next door while
sara's the sort who will whine about eeeeky things,
sue excel so much in sports while sara's a loser in it,

the first thing that came thru my mind when i saw sue was,
damn, tough girl, definitely not of the same frequency,
and the first that ran thru sue's mind when she saw me was,
yet another girly girl, EW,

well, its funny how this frenship of ours actually flourished,
this bond that emanates between the both of us,
its really weird, sue and me stick together like glue ever since,
i really do not kno' when, but who cares,
babes, i <3 you for all that you have done for me,
and trust me, this 3 years will bring SO much more of us both,

yep yep, nv forgetting the,
cannot-make-it-but-still-try-to-study gang,
you kno' them all, i dont have to mention any names,
we will all stick together and hopefully,
make it through everything together (:

So sue, you are probably lepaking down your house
right now, and i just hung up on the fone with you,
today with the whole gang was just awesome,
the stupid hamburger at the 29th floor,
the sticking of our faces at the wrong lifts, damn,
partners in crimes, eh eh ?

oh, and can i tell you something babes ?
for skus' sports day each year, be assure that
i be supporting you with ankle guards and deep heat,
i be there to congratulate you after your every race
and share your joy with you when you reach the
finishing line first, everytime, (: be assure okayy,

as cheesy as it may sound,
sue, best friends remain and never can end,
<: <: <:

2007-06-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

wo yao de zhi shi ni, zai wo shen bian /

so if it says no, well don let it linger anymore,
don drag this peace, things may just boil over,
lets not conspire to ignite if it says no,
this beautiful cascade of emotions wont show,
youre stimulating pain, pain is addictive,
so lets not if it says so, lets not, lets not,
xx

happy 12th,
<: <: <:

2007-06-11T12:09:00.000+08:00

its making my stomach sick to kno that until now,
im still prioritizing on all the wrong things,
sigh, sara sara,

ive ceased to believe beliefs,
we cant sift truth from beliefs,

but youre just being stupid,
when all those voices seem to be in control ?
tell me about it,
what ?
x

we can live like Jack and Sally if you want,
where you can always find me,
we will have halloween on crismass,
and in the night, we 'll wish this never ends,
we 'll wish this never ends,

i miss you,

2007-06-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

well, today was fly, (:
got my head all twisted,
my intestines all ruptured,

*

only sweeter,

2007-06-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

sara's ultimate aphrodisiac,

tinkerbelle has a new friend call ah meng,
tinkerbelle's a bee, ah meng's a monkey, <:
tinkerbelle's chinese name is ah hua,
and they both smell of ralph lauren blue,
and they are the bestest of frens, (:
<3

funny how you do me,
happy hug, <:

2007-05-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

ralph lauren's (blue) eau de cologne is amazzzing,
it actually hypnotizes me, really !
makes me wana fall asleep each time
i catch its familar wafting scent, (: hm,
but somehow, its seems more like an aphrodisiac,
<: haha,

goodnight, baby,
goodnight wearily,
i miss you like crazy,

2007-05-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

lets embrace the holidays with arms wide open, <:

i get to commit more time on other stuffs
besides school and studies and curricular activites,
<: <: <: yay !

right,
i cant really remember all that happened this week,
besides going to IMM and buying a whole lot of snacks
just to restock the snack bar which my bestie and team
put up for the welfare of the cambodia trip, <: yeap,
it was really funn whizzing past those shelves,
grabbing any snacks we like and tossing them
into the trolley all at one time, so hysterical,
we cudn stop laughing and squealing,

half of it only,

gaye pushing it around,

choosing, <:

thats how much we bought <: *clap clap

joyce and sara are not desperate housewives,
its past our vast knowledge to kno' that hotdogs
in packages can be open just by biting it and not by
failed attempts of slitting it again and again, :p
must be the temptations of long nails being pen knifes, <:
the super sandwiches that tasteee so yummmyyy,

and guess wad guess wad guess wadddd,
i'm meeting g;friend tomro, *squeals

2007-05-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

<: yeah how crude ah,

chao tahhhh all,
but its the thought that counts yeah,
hahah,

right,
ive very nice and sweet friends,
really,

yeapyeapyeap, another delicate making,
seee, not bad for breakfast eh ?
all for saraaaa <:

sunshine,
breakfast on bed for two, shall we ?.

2007-05-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

Feedback :

Perhaps, your friend can re-check with her / his attending
doctor for more information relating to " cut" in colon.
Various methods of cooking, eg. boiling, grilling,
baking, roasting, stewing or steaming, can help reduce fat intake.

( ie. avoid oily foods ) .
Tnk you for choosing Singapore General Hospital at time for enquiry.

Regards
Ask-A-Nurse

***

somebody sweeet seh,
actually went to the extend of emailing the nurse,
(: (: so as to find out more about colon cuts and all,

aisehhhh, so sweeeet sehhhh, <:

i got snickers in my locker (= *rubs tummy,

2007-05-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

cosmopolitan discussions,

flip tru' the newspapers these days,
and it will seem to you like we are
walking on the roof of hell right now,

drownings for breakfast,
death by shooting at lunch,
and sex cheats for supper,

we wudn and cudn turn the page over without
sighing out loud or frowning meticulously
at the deaths of thousands each day,

more and more,
the world seems like an emotional mindfield,
lesser and lesser,
a safe place to live in,

lets not close the pages of the newspapers
with all the heartbreaking reports,
lets all play our part and make a difference
in every and any way possible,

<: hm,

my point is,
lets go all out for world peace,
we really should, <:

shern's sexy love,
sara, with a lil bit more lovin' than always,

sommone just made my day with an awfully sweet gdnight msg <:

2007-05-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

* rubs tummy,

nice people share their chocolates with sara ! <:

tis is my bag,
erm, ive been snacking, alot, <:

yes, cute huh,
well, my nicey nice friends insisted that
i should consume no oily food
due to my painful colon,
so they bought the above for me,
sweeet rightttt, <:

yes, life's been fair to me,
i even got a dosage of g;friend today,
<:

with you by my side, i will fight and defend,

2007-05-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

ahhh, been so tired lately,
<: sara's so caught up with school
and everything about it laaaa,
been reaching home at rnd 9 plus these days,
but life's all ok, just that, i'm having a teeny weeny
bitta problem in obtaining more than just a
pathetic marginal pass for all my subjects,
and, needless to say, i miss all my loveys terribly :<

right,
im certain i just need one candy day
to make up for all that lack of sleep,
gon' fall sick really soon, i can feel it,
haha, my nose's having menses,
bleeds every single day, yeap yeap,

and i have 2.4 tomro !
i dono whether to laugh or cry,
took my 5 items already and i manage to
pass all <: <: <: yay yay yay,
now its just 2.4 to conquerrrr,
yikes, i so dont want to go for lunch time training,
yikes yikes yikes,

god bless me,
my dear friends, please pray that i will passss <:

2007-05-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

my whole family dine out today,
for an altogether mothers day' affair,
so granny came along as well <:
was sucha heart warming function, love it,

bought a handfone for mom with sissyy the ster,
yes, mothers' day gift for the coolest mom in the world,
she's really happy now <:
and seeing her happy makes me happy as well, heh,

oh yes,
i seriously don't wanna disappoint mr. saw laaaa,
gotta start studying, sara, hocus and pocus and FOCUS,
hm, plenty of essays to complete,

so tata ! <:

2007-05-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

9.46pm right now,
and i just got home, overwhelmed with fatigue,
yes, and my whole body's aching, :<
we ran 4 rounds round the stadium during pe today,
4 rounds ! z sucha torture, hate it,
but its okay, <: i kind of enjoy basking in the scorching sun
these days, how we will always end up
looking 2 tones darker, yea riiiiiggggght,

anyhows,
i feel a sense of accomplishment today cos im down
with one literature essay, just 2 more to go,
kinda pathetic i kno, but still, its an achievement, <:
heh, had hippyhoppy after that,
contributed further to my already aching muscles,
ha, but its ok, was super duper mighty power funn,
love it,

<:

right, someone just told me how ive never wished
anyone happy birthday in my blog, OKAY,

happy birthday to anyone whos birthday's today <:

my body's seriously aching,
masseur anyone ? <:

you, period. <:

2007-05-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

manchester united *
EPL champions 2007 <:
yay yay yay !

ya kno',
on this certain saturday,
i happen to lay my eyes on this sleeek nike sexysex bag and
wanted soooo badly to buy it but it was out of stock,
moments ago, i saw it right on top of my room's table sleek as ever,
and its all for me to keep, <:
what a pleasant surprise from mum ! aw,

yeap, and i went to change my pair of dunks with dad,
he claims the quality of those shoes were really lousy,
so yea, no choice but to change, dozed off on dad's
shoulder, heh, been quite awhile since i last dozed off on
a guy's shoulders, plus, dad's shoulder is so broad,
makes it comfy <:

i love daddy and mommy,
and all my friends in sku, <:

98.7 sku invasion,
yes they came to our sku <:

shan's pretty hot, <:

right, sara's gotta start focusing on her studies,
GP exam on the 18th of may,

yawns.

2007-05-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

went shopping today,
and item highlight of the day is ;
my pair of new running shoes (!)
<: mom and dad finally agreed on getting me
a pair of decent running shoes, i still remember
how they used to say i do not need one at all since
i will never agree to run in my whole life,
righhhhhtttt :<

anyhows,
i'm very sure all of man-united supporters
are going to become a one-night arsenal fan tonight,
same goes for me toooo <:

plenty of assignments to complete,
so bye <:

id go around a time or two,
just to waste my time with you,

2007-05-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

theres geog test tomorrow, on 4 taxing chapters,
but its ok, got back our mock test today and
my results served as a pretty good motivation for me
to cont' working hard, but still, ive plentiful of
deadlines to meet and even more undone
assignments to complete, sigh,

but well, i will make the best out of it, <:

on a lighter note, caught spiderman lll today,
right .. the brilliance of such movies,
its worth your every dime and penny, <:
an amazing show it is, plenty of unexpected
scenes to expect and ... mm,
i wont say more, lets just put it this way,
spiderman lll = ownage,

hm,
bye <:

i need a dose of you dose of you dose of you dose of you,

2007-05-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

today's meeting was fruitful, to say the least,
can sommone please tell me how the wireless connection
at mcdonald works, its sucha bugger, i swear,
but still, i'm so proud of my group <:

anyhows, you kno' i have pictures that i
yearn to upload so very badly,
but because of this and that,
(you kno' my usual excuses) yeah,
erm, i will post it up asap <:

i miss you,

2007-05-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

today was supposedly a holiday for me,
but, im gon' have to head to town later in the day
to meet my group and complete our pw,
but its ok, really, (: im looking at the
brighter side of life,

anyway, guess wad (?)
i be up for detention if i'm late fo'
another 2 times, ha, well done sara,
***

people who love,
are the ones who will peel the only prawn & give it to me,
(: (: (:

to the one that came n decided to stay arnd for a lil while longer,
thank you for being sucha sweetheart,

2007-04-28T21:27:00.000+08:00

This time i have really led myself astray,

beautiful saturday,
met siewzhen for somm' raw catching up,
shes all good, and i was really glad to see her,
caught 200 pounds beauty, and really,
that show is a serious heartbreaker,
i could'nt stop crying, no idea why,
oh well but still, reallly niceee movie,
<:

on a lighter note,
man united - 4
everton - 2

yay <:

choice of music:
runaway train,
by Soul Asylum,

2007-04-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

choice of music:
p.d.a we just dont care ,
by john legend,

a lil' bitta update on sku <:

Geog's a lil less of a burden now, yes, thank God,
i hold no hope in passing surprise test, but i tried,
i've a locker which is half mine, yay <:
i'm getting too involved with sue and gaya,
i like economics, for now,
sneaked out of sku with 4 fags for macs,
my current favourite haunt is starbucks,
theres a 4 period break tomro, rejoice,

glad to say, today didn complement yesterday in any way,

2007-04-25T18:01:00.000+08:00

well, what can i say ? hello life,

maybe, just maybe, its karma,
still, thanks to those who were there fo' me <:

2007-04-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

a picture paints a thousand words, <:

choice of music :
i'm a flirt,
by Bow Wow,

2007-04-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

this whole pandemonium makes the din terrific,

but thanks mom, you right those wrongs again,
youre so amazing and i love you so much, <:

2007-04-22T02:02:00.000+08:00

is this raw love a crime ?

well, now, guess what,
welcome to the suck,
would you please unbreak my heart,

2007-04-22T01:13:00.000+08:00

it was really good, thinned my hair today and went
for treatment as well, it was really relaxing,
and the quality time spent,
with acjc's percussionists & their glorious blazers ;
we laughed, talked, bitched,
& reminicsed about good old spastic time,
cried in our hearts, captured moments,
it was just really goood, heard them rythmite,
they were amazing, so i pray in my heart,
that they will get what they truly deserve for SYF,
(:

chilled with fiona, yet another motivating session,
went to her crib and talked and bitched and talked,
it was really goood, we exchanged life stories,

then met girlfriend and px, the ones in my bones,
it was then that i realised how much i miss BHS,
especially the people there, gosh, 4e2 seemed very
much like a distant memory now, but at the same time,
they appear to be so close to me, right in my heart,
scary how the clock takes life away,
the more i lived life, the more im losing it, aint we all ?

was suppose to ge for dee's party and all,
but being the infamous pangseh kia,
i backed out in the end, no particular reason,
i just had a barrage of ... thoughts to handle,
im tired, but i cant get to sleep, ahh .. what a cliche,
..........

siewzhen,
let me be the one you call if you jump,
i will break your fall, lift you up,
and fly away with you into the night,
if you need to fall apart, i can mend a broken heart,
if you need to crash, then crash & burn,
just kno' that you will not be alone,

2007-04-18T20:05:00.000+08:00

c.i.p day
& it was a blast,
minus those ugly singaporeans.
celebrated maira's & hilda's birthday,
and really God,
i cant thank you enough for letting me
be part of 07a7,

so yes, today is bring your own bag day.
my dear friends,
please conserve the environment,
& stop pushing the blame around.
since we are smart enough to kno'
that we Humans are contribuiting hell alot
to globawarming, ( pun unintended)
what we ought to do now is to clear up the mess,
it aint easy, nobody said twas goin to be,
but if nothing is done about it,
you and me, we will see each other in hell,

yes, hell - for the 2nd time ;
at this rate we are goin,
natural disasters will play a really small
part in the demise of Mother Earth.

to the unglam & really ugly singaporeans,
its a sad sad sadstory,

2007-04-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

i.n.d.u.l.g.e.n.c.e.

dawned upon me that i need a time out ;
manicure, hair treatment, colouring pictures,
doodling, window shopping, squealing at pretty things,
bouquet of flowers, doing more bimbotic stuffs, yes,
and hello you sweet thing, you kno'
youre going round in circles,
if this was what you crafted,
don't let me be part of it, tis' crazy.
but wait, its uncontrollable, isn't it (?)

i love geography,
geography can go kiss my ass.
(z)

put it this way,
mcfly's - its all about you is resonating
in my head like a nice piece of broken record.

2007-04-17T06:51:00.000+08:00

i felt it was'nt my stamina that improved,
it was my will to carry on,

close as can be,
i thought twas comforting too,
funny how you do me,
again, not again, maybe, again not again

2007-04-15T19:42:00.000+08:00

so hold me close & say three words like you used to do,

dancing on the kitchen tiles,

yes you make my life worthwhile,

so i told you with a smile ...

its all about you,

its all about you baby.

***

it was massively dream-like quality,
you held my hands and whispered to me;
you kno' its really lasting, it was intense,
oh, dont deny me any one of ur kisses x

its been awhile since i last saw you smile like that. ((:
SW what a beautiful dream, a pity it was just a dream

2007-04-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

i love you more than mr. big nose.
best friend,
though our communication
wanes at times of absence.
im at the same time,
aware of a great strength
that emanates in the background, ((:

2007-04-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

will we relish every moment, yet again.
now, like the past .. not the present.
the future is unknown, to us.

choice of music :
Its All About You
by McFly.

2007-04-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

at times, i feel so silly,
maybe i just dont comprehend,
but right now youre making me,
and right now, im under your control, for now.

senseless.

choice of music :
circle circle dot dot
by Jamie Kennedy & Stu Stone.

2007-04-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

warms my heart because at least someone cares,
about me against those horrible pills -
pills that ought to be banished and never to
be consumed by the human race, ever again.
warms my heart so much, thank you.
***

12april2007.

2007-04-11T19:53:00.000+08:00

upsets me to see you upset :(
but i was wishing the place wud never set in,

anyway, check this ;

love at first sight.
i highly think theyre from guess (=
***

manchester united 7
roma 1

thats as good as it gets.

2007-04-10T18:42:00.000+08:00

now i understand
what you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free
they would not listen
they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now
.
.
.
perhaps they never will

for they could not love you
but still your love was true
and when no hope was left inside
on that starry, starry night
you took your life as lovers often do
but i could have told you
this world was never meant for one as
beautiful as you
***

2007-04-09T20:16:00.000+08:00

((: wafting scent of ralph lauren blue.

2007-04-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

mr.sickness came knocking on my door yet again.
:( iam down with fever and yesterday, it went up
to a whopping 39.0 degree. plus my cough, and runny nose
and sore throat. my voice is completely dead.

then out popped my homework -
whats with the lame GP context,
which i seriously see no point in doing.
and other relevant subjects like literature,
econs and maths and GEOG assignments
( argh geographyyyy )
which have to all be handed in by tomro.
i don think iam goin to get any better.

and the mural painting,
the sample is due tomro. (z)
and i, as the group leader has to be solely
incharge of the sample painting.
how ? i dont want to jeopardize my whole groupppppp.
***

roarrrrrrrr. but you noe you noe you noe.
its at this point of time that i thank God sooo much,
for letting me into class 07A7 whos alwalys so super duper
mighty power understanding and patient and etc.

blog anymore and il complain even more later about
lack of slp, impending doom and more piled up works.
at this rate iam goin,
iam so not goin to make it.
thats sooo not goin to happen.

just keep lying, liar. (:

2007-04-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

nothing like you guys. (:

just so easy when the whole world fits inside your arms (:
mr. dragonboater /
***

to be fair,
i think that at times .. iam able to label myself as a deep-thinker.
-

i realised that amongst my circle of .. no, not friends.
lets just say, the circle of people i come into contact with.
theres a no. of those who simply love putting people in
really difficult situations, whats worse is somtimes ..
they even go to the extend of making the people they hate
suffer the same particular fate they once went thru, knowing
how much its goin to hurt. is this human nature ?.

and why isit that people are able to go to great lengths
just to satifsy their greed, their lust, their revenge,
their beliefs ..... why wudn they reflect that if there
really is a Greater Being .. He surely wudn wanna see
us react this way. is this also human nature ?.

well, so.
what are humans suppose to be like ?
how come we tend to sift truth from beliefs,
and not by concrete-proven statistics ?
oh wait, can we actually ?
***

at this rate we are going,
disasters will play a really small role to the
demise of Mother Earth.
-

because I as a homosapien,
would love to see the world live in harmony.

2007-03-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

baby turn arnd and lemme see ye'
sexy body go bumbumbum (:

luo ai :)

bottom right corner is me n momo.
the first fren i met in class 07A7. (:
the other 3, i swear i do not know who that girl is.
i was just bored. teehees.

i be up in the gym just working on my fitness.

haha. action only lar sara.

anyhows, twas a beautiful tuesday today, (:
i thank God from the utmost bottom
of my heart for days like these.

theres pe tomoro, * groans.
my muscles are tearing,
but il try, il try.
now all iam working towards to,
( besides my As and a diploma)
is being a more sporty person,
as in literally. not just out going
and open minded in personality.
ok, don laugh laaaaaa !
i said il try * hides face.

and chinese lesson was rather hilarious today.
we had ta talk about our parents,
and my teacher told me.
" ni shi bu shi hun xue'er ? na ni de mama yi ding hen piao liang "
HAHA. wth, wheres the link ?! but shes so cute,
very intelligent also. ya noe she can
tell what blood grp ya in just by looking
at youuu !

arrrg, and i wana become an activist.
i so wna help those ex-convicts
with their lifes all over again mannnnn.

andandand,
millenia's having this cambodia CIP thingy.
sigh, i so wana go. they are goin over to cambodia
to help those poor kids and teach them simple
english and math and chinese etc. aw aw aw.
sounds really fulfilling, i wannnntttt.
***

so a lil bit more on my day.
got out of sku at 630 pm today,
due to sku commiments and other personal stuffs.
slowly made my way ta the bus stop and boarded the bus.
reached home only at 8pm ?.
my legs were killing me already, i swear.
but guess what, on my way back. i saw zhengjun
and ying min, these 2 very cute siblings
( who goes to my auntie for tuition lessons. )

they were back home from selling newspaper i think.
so they were pushing this big trolley like thing.
iam pretty sure ya'll noe which kinds. (:
yeap. upon seeing them, i quickly made my way to
the trolley and sat myself down, comfortably,
not flinching at all. then the rest of my journey home
was the 2 of them pushing a very happy sara infront
busy smsing dearest siewzhen and mr. dragonboater. (:
they were bickering about something, so cute.
gees, come ta think of it.
i sure hope iam not the cause of it. weeee.
***

nights alll.
takecare ! (=

2007-03-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

iam in zirconn, which means topaz in balestierian terms.
they were ranked at the 2nd place for 2 consecutive years
and are planning ta be champions this year.
( wait, who doesnt want ta be champs huh (=

and the best part ?.
my whole class reigns the cheerleading group of zircon.
yes, my 07A7.

/ belive it or not,
cheer practices starts tomro.
***

hello loveyteo, babyshern, superzhang.
i miss you like crazy you
chickenmcnuggentnasilemak.

2007-03-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

its 12am right now ! (: brand new weeek.
timetable says theres PE today,
ahlamak. i dono whether to laugh or cry.

ah, anyway .. ive met all of my teachers already.
i really like each of them but i guess ... my lit teacher
was a wee bit of disappointment.
i wont say shes not good lah, perhaps too dramatic lor.
hm, is this sommth all lit teachers
should possess, the art of drama mama and big big
hand gestures ? haha, she kept saying she would try
her best to ignite the ultimate passion of reading to us. (?)
i do not know what exactly she meant by that.

anyhows, i just finished my GP homework.
like finally, i was feeling reallllly confused. aha.
fian had to even call to explain all details ta me
once again. so i meticulously wrote down every single
word i heard just to make sure i didn miss out on any.
ahaha. how should i put it, i got everything mixed up, ahhh.
an arduous task, yes.
and i still have lit homewrk to complete.
(:

so BYE ! (=

2007-03-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

goodness gracious.
i swear i didnt see it coming.
(: (: (:

sara sara sara sara sara is sooo happy.
aha, cos guess what.
about 40 girls went for tennis trials today,
and i swear it was freaking scary.
we had ta first go thru the seniors who werent
the leasttttt friendly and if we manage ta get thru
them, we'll have ta face our hongkong coach.
40 people went okay and for the first time,
i wanted to be part of the team soooo badly.

first tryout, we had ta hit the balls 2 times w our forehand
and another 2 times - backhand. then we had to volley
with our vice coach ( who looks really strict but perhaps
has a nicer side to her which i havent discovered ).
choong and fabs went for trials as well, and i swear my
hands were trembling like shit at the end of tha day.

sara is SO not a sports person. id be gloating already should i be
able ta pass my 2.4km within the time range of 16-19 mins.
and .. never in my life have i tried tennis.

but guess what, 12 girl got chosen out of the 40
in the first round. and after the 2nd trial with coach..
only 5 remained ....
.
.
.
.
.

and i was one of the 5.

shernwhey are you shock or not !

cos iam veryveryvery shock.
do me a favour pls, ask me what CCA iam in
each time you see me ok, i be more than just glad
ta tell you. haha ! ok, screw that, twas just my
ego talking, i swear its gon be realll hard for me
ta cope in tennis but ahhh, we shall seee :D.
***

ya noe when coach threw me 4 balls,
i just told myself that i have to hit those
freaking balls and i rly managed to do it, lol.
and Pam got thru too / we were
freaking happy cos of somm bimbotic reasons. *laughs.
the other 4 who got in were all experienced players.
God no, i cant believe iam in team tennis.

called my mom to share my joy with her
and .. she sounded realllly shock. ah, what can i say.

weeee. and fab and choong got into the Boys team as well !
awesome right, ahaha. we cudn stop talking about the kinda
rackets and shoes we are gon buy, how we gon hold the racket
to sch and how we think we are gon rock the work. lol,
freaking bimbo and chauvinists i should say.
and training officialy starts only when A div' are over,
till then, we have ta go for practices on Saturdays
starting from i dono when.

tormo, gon hit the court and start practicing in the morn.
wham bham smack ! :D. i really need to start training
on my totally-cannot-make-it stamina lahhhh.

anyhows, iam deliriously happy.
i hope everything goes well.
i thank Mom the most lar, i know my whole family
names are said in her prayers, i just know. (:
ahh, i love you mum! :D.

ps: the exorbitant cost of my fone bill is @#)$(!)@#($.
so .. i wont be replying smses, calls or whatever form of
communication unless you are shernwhey (=

aight, kidding.
takecare all ! (:

2007-03-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

me : dad, i need $200 to buy a sports shoes for sch.
dad : so much for a decent sports shoe ?
me : wah lao, mum must have told u i only want decent ones.
dad : no la, she didn say anything to me.
me : then how u noe i want decent ones.
dad : oh cos i read your blog. (:

hahahahha ! i dono if its for realll ...
guess the candour of his voice
made it all so funny.
***
07A7 reigns.
oh shiz, i have ta stop singing praises. ha!

but ya noe, during this particular one hour break.
07A7 all went ta the library to slack and played
truth or dare, it was supppper funny.
i swear ! like super duper. farris reminds me so
much of branda, i swear.

so we had this pen to indicate who gets tag ..
plenty of challenging questions exchanged.
and i think sue is awfully sweeet.
she was asked " if you were stranded in an island
with 07A7 and can only save 3 people, who would
they be ?" guess what ? i was one of them.
damn sweeet right, i wasnt expecting that at all.
shes like ... somone whom i made only inane small
talks with. awwwww man.

and timothy had ta shout in the library
" OHMYGOD ITS WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE"
we nearly got chased out, lots of pre U 2s and 3s
got very irritated. but all in all it was realllly hilarious.
the shake head nod head things, oh 07A7.
( inside joke )

and dee gave me a letter filled with beautiful flowers today.
no wonder that comment darling, youre sucha sweeethart.

teehees. and classes were okay today.
geography still seem really really tough to me.
but i will do my best. (=

met brens after that.
it was a grand reunion man and it feels soooo good,
i love you brandaaa.
***

to baby :
yesterday's dream was raw man. (=
shern shern shern* this symphony of love is
in a romancing moood, its always in a romancing mood.
haha.. my sexy dragonboater. loveyoualways !

2007-03-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

my GP teacher has a blog.
she is sososososo coool, i swear.
she has compliments for every student that she
used to teach, from her past students from RJC
to those in millenia. she is just soosososo cool.

she'd say things like.
" a really sweeet girl who has some sexual disorder
bcos she has a huge crush on miss xxx "
or ..
" an awesome boyfren who plays the violin and piano.
an ideal eye candy "

omg, unbelievable.

and my econs teacher ms low is super nice.
i feel, that shes pretty much those kind of typical
young teachers, who haven seen much of the different
kinds of students arnd and .. always trying her best to
make everything nice and smooth-sailing.
(: very very patient. and i like econs, first lesson today
and it left me with a good impression.

mr saw is my geography teacher.
funky and scary at the same time,
coached CJC's pupils before,
even those taking Special papers ...
who scored distinction. (z man, so smart for what ?! )
he makes me feel like geography at h2 level is
the possibly most difficult-to-tackle-subject in Alevel.
watthehell. but he thinks its still okay for me to take
geog at h2 level even thou i know nuts about it,
like seriously nuts. oh wells, we shall see. (:

i haven seen my literature teacher yet.
i hope whoever thats teaching us will be just as nice.
literature's like my favourite subject and a beautiful one.
so yeah, really really hope the teacher will rock socks.
i have my own plans in the future about literature ...
will talk about it once A level draws nearer. (:

had a pleasant day today.
especially loved the class bonding makan session
we had during break time, will asked for more stuffs
like that 3 or 4 times a week, it really brings us closer
tgt as a class.

and surprisingly, pe today was ok.
not including the fact that i was sweating
and panting like crazy at the end ...
everything went quite okayy. tedious
but manageable lor :).

and after sku is ... always packed w personal and sku stuffs.
freaking tired now.

this post is so redundant,
but just to update my love ones on my life ...
yeap.

and i know ive said this a thousand times,
but it wont hurt to say once more.
life right now is really good,
blissful, peaceful, simple and just .... awesome.
i wont ask for so much .. but at the same time.
i would wished things would stay as it is now.

made tons of new friends,
learnt lots of new stuffs.
had truckloads of fun.

so now,
i guess its time for me to revise my
5mm thick Geography notes.
hows that for starters ?
plus GP homework and econs notes.

ps : hello shernwhey bby, wo ai ni oh! (=
jees. i miss alll my loveys, like really man.

2007-03-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

back to sch life (=
and i love my class.
was one of the majority who've got
just the kind of subj combinations i want.

econs, geography and literature at h2.
and mathematics at h1.
i was so afraid id end up taking managem.
of business, but phew .. thank God.
iam pretty sure iam not gon cope in MOB.
not a business kinda person,
more linguistic. (:

iam signing up for travel and tourism dip. as well.
judging from the fact that classes are conducted
only during the holidays and on Saturdays,
iam quite fine with it. besides, they've got it
all planned out for us. once it inteferes with our
A levels, they will put the diploma on hold. so yeah,
its very reasonable. A levels and a diploma in travel n tourism ..
just fine. (= but for now, lets hope iam eligible for it ?.
iam not too sure if i have to have any criteria or not.

anyhow,
orientation was just the big bang.
really got us all hyped up and very very united as a class.
iam in 07A7, and i cant be more proud of every single soul
in that class. everyone endowed with impeccable natures in their
own lil ways, so nice and awesome. iam v glad iam in 07A7 -
the class that iam goin ta be in for 3 years.

i sense new beginnings of true frenships,
and a whole load more of obstacles to conquer, together.

part of 07A7 (: ( others were busy with the items etc. )

i find the mascot thingie most hilarious.
everybody was soooooo into the whole thing,
it just made it all more fun.

my favourite ones.

my pride and joy.

my 07A7 flag (:

(:

oh joyce.

xxx

yeap !
have been screaming my guts out for the past few days.
iam losing my voice, yes iam.
but i love my sku, my class, my friends.
iam already getting this sense of belonging already.
straight bus ta sku, straight bus back home.
always with fren(s) cos fab stays sooo near me,
i don have ta go sku alone. and always on the way,
i meet diyanah and choong and other peeps who
board the bus. aha ..

oh, and how could i forget,
i think i have the nicest GP teacher and mentor.
especially my mentor mdm ong,
she reminds me sooo much of the chinese version
of mrs suneeth, always coming to us like our mother.
closing one eye on our untidy manner/ways,
even if she does gets angry,
she scolds us in the gentlest manner.
ha, i was caught for uniform and hair for the first
day of sku, came back the 2nd day with the same hair.
i swear i thought i was gon get sent back home ..
( even packed my bag all already) but bcos of mdm ong,
i was let off. (: shes goin ta be my chinese teacher !
how awesome is that :D.

iam very contented with life right now.
it might be really simple and melancholic, but i think
thats just what i need. i want to dedicate 3 years of
studying and all, enroling myself in to Uni - faculty of law
after that and flaunt my dip. to the faculty of law's HOD.
( if i do get that dip lah ) and after that,
work my way towards being a lawyer,
support my love ones and get married to shernwhey.
thats how i want my life to be, systematic, simple ...
and successful. i want to support my love ones
and give them allll very good lives.
***

my nightly-daily calls with shernwhey are just what i need
to perk my very monotonous days up. (: got my timetable and
lessons officialy starts tomro.. rather lookin' forward ta it.

(:

will post the pics up on my trip to zoo once i have the time.
been reaching home at 8-9pm these few days and iam really
tired. ahhh, this post is long enough to make up for the large
period of absence ! (:

takecare all;
love, sara.

2007-03-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

wen ur days hits a sour note,
you can get all bummed out about it /
oh yes, of course you can ! OR ...
you can be grateful that things are not worse
than how they already are. sure, it maybe a simple
form of hopeful optimism, but ..
we cant deny that its also a smart
way of looking at things.
(:

hello branda .. (=
i miss you and i had a thoroughly fun day
with ya today, yes i swear.
***

princess X says:
if u cud choose. wud u rather die before or after me.
leesiewchen; says:
after.
leesiewchen; says:
a...
leesiewchen; says:
wait
leesiewchen; says:
after.
leesiewchen; says:
sure
leesiewchen; says:
you want to know why
princess X says:
why
leesiewchen; says:
so that i can make sure that you life is secure for the days when im still in your heart.
leesiewchen; says:
i prefer to sacrifies my life for someone i love.
princess X says:
(:
princess X says:
wait ah, i save this conversation first.

***

so..
would you die before, or after the one you love ?
(:

2007-03-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

" i guess life is like this. We are born, we live, we die.
Life is meaningless. it is just a passage of time where
we are introduced to various stimuli like pain and
suffering .. Death, is the eventual victor. Sara, i know
how you are goin to phrase my situation so beautifully
and then twisting my emotions in hope of making me feel
better but no, this time is real.
i have lost the exuberance & zest for living "

well, you got the first part right.
i hoped i phrased it beautifully ? (:
but uh, come 2nd part,
thats where you are wrong.
no matter what,
iam goin to twist your emotions.
for you see, that is your problem.
you guess, you just keep on guessing,
you wont settle down and reflect ...
***

some people faced a whole myraid of problems
in their lives but never once complaining,
they hold on to what i call inspirational sayings
which are placed strategically in their brains.
it gets triggered very easily and thats when
they will draw hopes from those sayings.

iam going to be just like that.
see how iam going to work towards becoming the
very best of me. i want to make the best out
of my life and fulfill what i really want to do or be, in life.

everyday, in every single way,
i will be getting better and better.

and so are you, dearest one ! (:

keep enduring all the jokes and bantering people
around you are giving and you WONT get to anywhere.
stand up, and FIGHT for yourself ..
that is the first step to opening up.
-

look dearest, why dont you close your eyes and
just imagine the moon casting a glow on you,
it then (somehow) caused the images around you to soften.
go on, think of it as a heavenly glow that was meant specially
justfor you. isnt it obvious 'nough, this IS a portend of good luck.

now .. cant you already see that this just isnt going ta
be the end of everything ? no, it isnt !
and the end wont come unless you submit yourself to it.
***

(: you noe what,
come what may.
there's going to be sara here for you.
-

like what shihui always retorts to me when iam in trouble /
WO TING(2) NI. (:
***

p/s: on a totly irrelevant note,
i love you shernwhey, sorry i ( once again) fucked up.

2007-03-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

dearest baby,

thanks for pushing everything back ( and waking up late)
just so that we can meet up and chill together for 2 hours.
12th march spells a significant something, doesnt it ?
(: its our 3rd year tgt and yes,
love is still, very much, circulating around the both of us.

i know you are busy with appeals and your JC matters.
and iam aware how busy you are goin to get in the days,
weeks or even the couple of years to come,
whats with your dragonboat/ canoeing trainings.
that will mean less meet up again .... yeah?

iam sorry for bidding you goodbye with tears in my eyes.
everything seemed like a tragic ending, who would have
guessed that today was our 3rd year together. iam sorry ..
but always, i hate to expect time wen it comes for us to go
our seperate ways, 2 hours came and went tooo smoothly.

now, i sound like an emo bitch whos sending her boyfren
off to a country for goood.

things arent as bad as it is, right ?
:) we will still spend hours strolling thru' estates,
gazing at the colossal houses and formulating dreams
of what kind of house we would own in the future,
wudn we ?

we would still walk hand in hand thru the picturesque part
at esplanade crafting ambitious plans for our future and
at the same time, soak ourselves in the thrill of experiencing
the flushes of first love.
wudn we ?

we would,
iam pretty sure we will. (:

heres to many more of sara and shernwhey.
cheeers baby, happy 3rd year of love ...
and beyond.
***

Lay your hands on me,
Hold me as long my body's shaking,
Hold me as long I'm anticipating,
Hold me as long, for all my life ..
your all I ever wanted.
So Hold me as long.

wo, hen ai ni.
* you have lips that i could spend my whole life with .. (:
muscle man, all muscles .. no lies /

xx yours faithfully,
sara.

p/s : just so u noe, i love the bag (: its just what i needed.
and ... i hope ya'll love the phoenix shirt from lawman
just as much, u noe u look absolutely goood in it. (:

2007-03-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

saturday was spent at a certain sommone's
wedding again. hm, as far as i noe, we aint blood related.
but .. i guess in a way or another, we are somehow related.
yes, wat an irony. so, the bottom line is - we'll still have to
attend her wedding. lol, the funny part was .. i didn even
get to see her face. well, maybe i did but wasnt aware. ahh ..
so many people are tying the knot !! so many blissful couples ..
and just look at that beautiful cake and the grandgrand stage
where they wud say " i do " to each other and be officialy
declared as husband and wife. awwwwwww .. (:

XXX

So, orientation at Millenia was good (:
the pre-U 1 students get ta interact a lil
with the group of japanese students who were
there on friday. its pretty weird, i skipped sku
on thursday and suddenly felt like ive missed
out on alot. ahaha ! thankfully, i had these 2
to explain every single thing for me.

they both made my days at Millenia even better.

now, i just hope that il be in the same class
as dee and dinie. considering the fact that we are
both taking literature and econs at h2 level.
we might well be in the same class. (:
or at least, same lecture theatres ?.
yeap. went for econs lecture as well ..
got too tired and chao ta meet siewzhen after tt,
since fabs choong and diyanah were also
heading elsewhere ta get their various things
settled respectively.

went down ta square2 to meet zhenny.
(: she saved me from those horrible-looking robots.
yes, wats new. shes rather determined to lemme
conquer my fears.

so i had ta practically walk right next ta these
awful robots and runnn to the exit after that.
zhen ah zhen.

XXX

on a side note, i went ta carrefour with mommy
today ta replenish somm of our daily neccesities stocks
and i suddenly realised that ive to get a no. of things
done before my sku officialy starts next monday.
thanks to mummy who reminded all of them for me.
... my spectacles, ez link, bus stamps, sku badge
and even a pencil box complete with stationerys
since ive forgotten where i put mine. ( z)
and also.. a pair of decent looking sports shoes
ta go with my uniform which ive ( thankfully)
bought. light blueee, its acceptable ! (:
thank God ive gotten my amath text book already.

ah,
i desperately want to get into Uni ..
yes, i desperately want.

***

tcare loveys (:
i drew the rose using paint myself.
i think iam quite talented /
teehees.

2007-03-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

i live my life for you .. (:

***

today someone told me,
that if you cant have the best.
then make the best out of all that you have.

these days, i have a weak foreboding for everything.
so although, the above didnt at all, referred to
my point of problem .. but .. come to think bout it.
it applies to everything, doesnt it ?
sorta enlightened me a lil.
funny, cos i hardly give a shit on all
the kinda advices/quotes people tend to
use while trying to talk me out thru things.

that sommone then continued,
* happiness is a choice.
so no matter how fuckup we may feel in life,
we can always choose to be happy.
aight, it made somm' sense.
to me, at least.

so sara, why cant u be more understanding and less demanding ?

XXX

at times, i realised i rely on a couple or trio of my love ones
sooo much so, that iwill start fretting and get all hysterical if
i don get ta talk to them or see them for too long a period.

thats bad, all these years.
i still cant go on with life on my own.

i thought i changed for the better.

so shernwhey, iam really sry for all the trouble.
thanks for always keeping me sane even thou'
u have ur own problems to deal with.
sorry you always have to do things my way.
sorry i never tried to make u feel better.

i miss you like crazy,
every minute and every day.

2007-03-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

dearest shernwhey (:

its goin ta be 3 long years since u last asked me
if i wud be your gf. i still remember that very day ..
how you looked at me with those puppy eyes and declared
your love to me .. be it the other way round watsoever.
that was the nicest moment of my life. oh yes, u bet it was.
it still is actually. ohmy, how young we were at that time,
knowing that love will bring a thousand pain but still being
ignorant about it. but then .. it was rather beautiful,wasnt it ?
this 3 years together. the love/hate feelings i often had for you,
the times when i made big mistakes yet you still forgave me readily.
your love is what i call unconditional, and really. i can never thank
God enough for letting you step into my life and changing it to a
better one .. teaching me the rights from wrongs, the dos and donts.
whats not. oh yes, i may be a stubborn child at times, always
wanting things to go my way. but still, u never fail to give in to
me. yes, sometimes u spoil me but ahhh. wat can i say ?
shernwhey wants the best for sara, dont you ?

ive been missing you alot lately, its like something gnawing
at the centre of my heart relentlessly and ... my condition
gets worse at night. its crazy. i think of you almost thruout
the whole day and think of all the things we did tgt. sometimes
even goin out to the extend of taking out the pictures we took
for the 3 years and smiling to myself while looking at it. i think
about the times u shut me up by kissing me. or bear hug me just
to make me even more irritated. i may not show it, but darling.
u mean so much to me .. and i cannot imagine a day without you.
yes, i cannot. il probably die, turn hysterical or just die.
its amazing how you can tolerate me so much even after 3 years.
right, so the passion we had from the first few stages of our rltnship
may not be as intensed as it is like right now. still, i love you.
u bet i do. if this isnt love, then i do not noe what is already.

i see myself waking up in the morning every single day
with you by my side, cuddling me and wishing me good morning
in a wispy voice just ... 5 more years down the road. (:
ahhhhhhh, tolerance. if its possible, i want u to be by
my side 24/7. i want to stick to you lykglue.

oh shernwhey,
iam sucha fool for you.
a fool for love.

XXX

ps / goin' for Millenia Institute, the 3 year JC/pre U
course plus a diploma. aha, iam quite ok with it lar actually.
had to think of pros and cons at first, and was quite upset ..
since bio medical's r4 dropped till 10 :( ahhh. but its ok,
iam pretty sure the great guy up there has a reason for
letting me get to Millenia Institute. (: gon try for business
and travel n tourism dip. in Millenia Institute and at the same
time, divide my time for A levels. 3 years, i think its just nice.
if i really have trouble coping, then i will just drop the dip.
and concentrate on my 3 year route to A levels (:

if everything goes well, iwill get into a U.
n fulfill my dream of being a toptoptop lawyer. ! muahahas.
manipulate your thinkings with just my power of words. yes !

so i said before, if it aint a doctor, its gona be a lawyer. (:
aight, iam contented to say, at least.

2007-03-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

* leave me alone to day dream in the bus.

I do not want to drive.
To me, that would represent the sacrifice
of my daily dose of sara-time.

I take long rides on the bus whenever i can
and back home again at the end of a hectic day.
I refuse to study in the bus ( unless theres a test )
and I seldom entertain fone calls and text msgs.
most of all, i detest making inane small talks with
acquaintances while travelling.

The moments i spend in the bus each
day have almost become a refuge,
a place to seek solace.

It is almost the only time in my crowded
sch schedule days that I do not have anything to do.
I can daydream, think about shernwhey, make plans for
my weekends/ dreams/wedding etc. I can peer at clouds
from my seat and imagine unicorns dancing to melodious
music.Think about old frens and remember silly
incidents as landmarks whizz by.

I pass by my old school daily on my way to work,
and everyday, I am caught upon a fresh onslaught
of memories that triggers me to chuckle to myself.
It starts my day off on a beautiful note.

And as cars pass by, I imagine myself dissecting
each of them and putting them back together to
build my dream car -The nice pink porsche equipped
with winged like doors and hopefully, a sweet complete
with the price tag of a normal family car. (: ahhh,
and how could i forget. I love letting the breeze ruffle
thru my hair.

***

Maybe 2 years from now, id rushed eagerly to register
myself for my theory drving test and then, my driving cert.
Perhaps then, i may welcome the gurgling of my children
and their endless questions at the back of my car seat while
catching a whiff at the scent of my husband's colonge in
the car when iam driving ......

that will be a few years from now.

As for now, however ... if you see me in the bus,
please smile to me, but then... do leave me alone
in my dreams and memories. (:

XXX

so i received an mms from shutian today.
was feelin' a lil weird cos whothahell sends
mms(es) to me, well .. not unless they are
overseas or .. they badly want to show me someth.
so i opened .. and i saw this ;

attached to the picture, it says ..
" this is my depressed face, on behalf of all of us ...
we are depress! we miss You. "

FAGs.
i was on the verge of crying okay.
sigh ... iam this close to making a
decision already, plus .. i can safely say
( that is, if i do get it ) , that iam gon
be happy with it. but right now,
its like iam back to square one.
iam starting from where i last stopped
and i feel helpless once again.

sara, what isit that you are afraid of exactly ?
u said we all need to fight for what we want.
now, its right before your eyes.
whats stopping you .... just what ?
U are aware of your longterm goal.

should i, or should i not ?
oh Yeye, please pedal ah-an's Faith.
she needs plenty of them right now.

XXX

leesiewchen; sara? 10 years down the road. says:
rmb my big name okay
leesiewchen; sara? 10 years down the road. says:
i love you so much lei.
leesiewchen; sara? 10 years down the road. says:
LOL.
leesiewchen; sara, promise me that we will still go
awwwwwwwwwwwww together. ((: LOL. says ;
(:

on a side note, the other time .. my nick was someth
like this. " i love it wen u call but u nv call at all. "
so tis cutsie toootise bigbully siewchen .. upon seeing that,
called me immediately. hahaah, the first 2 words i cud
utter once i picked up my fone was " er xin " :p cos it
was just lyrics from a song lorrrrrrr. haha, shes
freeeeekin' Sweeeet with the capital S lar!

***

so yeah siewchen,
yes i promise,
from the bottom of my hart.
10 years down the road .....
awwww.

2007-03-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

okie dokes ! pictures as promised (: (:
look what ive got here ;

yes, my favourite colour.
thee oh so glamourous colour - GOLD ! (:
bought this today, courtesy of mom's $ of cos.
teehees.

XXX

aight,
i will start with pictures at work first ! :D.

thats my desktop at work ! (:

my companions at work.

this is like a typical breakfast at work.
free of charge ! yes they spoil me like crazy.
read on,

all the furry puffy stuffs & zhuzhu ive got !

i even have Vitamin pills from my big auntie just to
freshen myself up in the morning(s). so sweeeeet.

ur heart is the place, i call home (:

XXX

cousins engagement (: (: love was all round.

nx time i wana marry in 2 different cultures, what else but malay and chinese.

for one, their wedding gown is irresistable and my cousin's really pretty. (:

and two, i have so many sugar, spice and everything nice ta gorge myself with.
and threee; nothing beats gatherings like this.

XXX
brens birthday present,
the one which i cut myself and hurt my spine while completing.

i had to pull the shirt and write at the same time.

i hurt my spine bcos i was lying/sitting in an awkward position for 4 hours.

the end product. (: borrowed those marker above
from my piano kiddos who were generous enough
to lend me theirs ! (:

i gave her all these together with a letter
and a watch from Quartz. yes branda,
i knew u were close to tears.
at least now, u noe how much i love you right ?
iam not sommone who wud spend 4 hours just doing
silly things like this, but for you .. all these are an exception. (:

XXX

iama camwhore, with part of my wardrobe behind. haha !

3 of my bed time best frens, me shihui and brens.

iama camwhore !

:).

wuuuu.

:D.

butterflyyyy (:

XXX

shutian says : HAVE A NICE DAY LOOKING AT MY DIMPLES ! (:

cutie pie says : SMILE !
cos u nv noe whos falling in love with ur smile ! (:
***

BYEBYE my loveys. (:

2007-02-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

iam texting siewzhen now. (:
shes telling me about the adamkhoo's course.
yes, that amazing course which changed soooo many of our lives.
shes into the 2nd day of the course .. and my friends noe exactly
what hell we went thru during the 2nd day.
but hm, the 3rd day is goin ta be overwhelming
for my siewzhen, iam sure it will. (:

well, it was overwhelming for me.
wen i saw my mom's face smiling right back
at me at the back of the conference room
with tears on her face, showing me the
thumbs up sign. i noe there and then, that
each time - no matter how hard iam gon fall.
iam goin to pick myself up. it will not matter
how weak or devastated i may feel at that time ..
it wudn affect me, and i told myself that wenever
i stood up from every fall- its goin to be for my mom. (:

and my family and my shern,
and everybody else who loves sara.

X

i apologize for the vast amount of words,
or rather .. the lack of it ?. my computer's
like a time-bomb. i shall not say anymore lest
it hears what i say and decides ta go on
a frenzy once again. as usual, ive plenty
of pictures to upload. will have to wait till the nxt time :(.

so ta sum it all up. beeen busy goin out/workin' these days.
i cant really remember everything. but feel free ta read branda's
or shihui's blog. i spend most of my time with them and other
groups of people (which is always inclusive of them ) especially
w branda. (: u noe, me and her, lesbians la. heh.

and iam still taking up that job which
happens 3 times or at the most, 4 times
a week. heehee ! wadd joy. its not a tedious
job at alll. i enjoy doing what i do andi love the
company there. being the youngest,they pamper
me with the best foods and spoil me like crazy.
the other time, my nose bled ( bcos mensus coming )
everybody went hysterical. pauline even went to the
extend of buying eels for me bcos she claimed that
the older generation label it the BEST remedy against
nose bleeding. ewwwwwww. but its from sushi tei, u noe ..
the unagi. ah, i still dono if its fortunately or unfortunately.

and each day during lunch break, its equivalent
to a heavenly gourmet spread. they go to the
most exquisite and high class restaurant to" talk about business "
but always, end upchattering and laughing heartily at
old / cold jokes. i get freee lunches every day with these
rich people - business man and woman. the bills are peanuts
to them. sigh, now my ambition is to be a taitai ! i want to be
one who can fan her hands frivolously even wen the weather's
cold just to flaunt the 10 diamond rings and the gold chopard
watch on her hand.

MUAHAHAZX.

its crazy, sommtimes wen i have nothing ta do in the office,
i will just stare at my watch and then exclaim(ed) after 1 minute ..
that ive just earned 11.7 cents. aha.
X

i miss shernwhey :( z. it always seemed sooo long
since the last meeting we had.

u are the sweetest thing that ever happened.
12th march (: iam very lookin forward ta it.
X

i will blog more, and il upload pictures really sooon.
promise ! don forget ta keep checkin' the-ballerina out ! :D.
and i noe my new skin's nice. i actually used this stupid comp
ta make it. muahaha. not that stupid afterall eh?
ahhh ... flowersssss. *salivates. (:
X

tcare alll :D.
signed off w plenty of loves.

2007-02-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

its a long post !
X

i had a talk with my sister last night.
it was one of those few rare occassions
where shes sleeping at home and not in the
hostel. (: i was lying next to her and
we started talking about everything under
the sun. be it love, boyfriends, our family,
the world, politics etc. it was heart warming.
she started telling me about how stressful
her life was at NTU and how she wants,
sooo badlyto provide daddy and mommy with a good life.

i saw a different part of her last night.

and she started to ask me about ACJC and
biomedical science. in a way, i knew she
wanted me to make a decision before
getting my JAE postings. so she asked me
several questions. and she told me some
facts about JC and poly.

and i realised something. be it JC
or a poly, iam still working my way
towards UCLA. ( a university in los Angeles)
the one me and fiona are both eyeing (:
yes. and she say that should i graduate
from poly and get to a U. it will only take
me 2 years to get a degree. whereas in JC.
it'd take me 3 years. the same things Jo said.
yes, so isnt it the same after all. a total of 5 years
to get a degree. the only thing i feel is different.
is that in JC .. it wud really be much
easier to get to the Universities in sg.
but iam eyeing for the one in LA, so yes.
it wudn affect me much ... i guess ? (:

she and fiona said the same thing.
they both said, what if i do get into ACJC
but screw my A levels ? then to other people.
i will only be known as ..
the girl who screwed her A levels.. and not.
the girl who was from ACJC that screwed
her A levels. no one will even care i came
from ACJC by that time.

it made so much sense, i was telling myself.

my sis continued. wouldn it feel much
better when u hear people say.
" yesyes, that one. the one that went
to poly and made it up to University. " (:

that will be freaking coool.
so i asked her about combined certs.
and she said 95% of her friends who took
it didnt make it. she knew me well
nough' to tell me this.

" you noe there will be most days in
either JC or poly where you will still
be fooling around with your friends.
you cant do that in JC. thou i wudn
recommend you to do that in poly either.
but in JC, its a one way ticket to U.
with an A level cert. what can u do ? nothing.
then again, with a diploma. what canyou do ?
at least something with a basic pay of 1k plus.
and you are weird,i don understand why you
only want to get into ACJC, how bout other
Jcs like innova. but its a good and bad thing in a way. "

i stared at her intently,
letting every word she said pierced thru my brain.

so i thought about my trip to AC today.
we had lou hei. (: but thats not the mainpoint.
back there at Lecture Theatre 3
where we were having our practice.
those J1s were sitting comfortably
on the chairs, doing their work since
they are only here for sight seeing.
not 100% confirmed in ACJC yet.
then all of a sudden, i saw biying
slamming her file on the chair
and literally pulling her hair.

so i asked her, what happened.
she said she cudn answer a h2 math question.

i took a step back and stared
at her with a startled look. she continued to
stressh erself with the same question,
brows knitted together.

i sat down and started mingling with
my seniors. at the back of my head,
i was asking myself.

" gees, do i really want to be like them.
or am i like that at all ? oh no,
iam not a single pointer .. thou i can
get into ACJC thru appeal if i really wanted to.
i see them working and studying so hard every prac.
getting fustrated at a math question.
oh no, thats not me. thats not my type.
that is sooo not sara "

i doubt iam the kind that would
study everyday, racking my brains
over a math question, oh man.
il probably die at ACJC.

***

with that, iam quite sure u guys will noe
that ive pretty much settled on dropping
the whole idea of JC already.
yes, ACJC had been my dream. but i realised,
my ultimate dream is to change the world.
and like any realistic singaporean,
iam working towards an ambition that can provide
my whole family with a good life.

if it cant be a lawyer, it'd be a doctor.
doctor save lives, and when someone lives are saved.
it is a life changing experience for them.

so yea, iam also changing the world.
(:

X

on a side note, iam meeting brens tomro
at night to get somm stuffs tgt. it'd be good.
i need someone to cheer me up.
and she will be just nice. my best fren.
damn. i dont even know why iam feeling down.
but i guess, iam old enough to know whats
good for me. yea ?(: anyw, iam working for a day
tomro at my aunt's company. some underwriter for
insurance .. 1 hour $7. goood money compared
to many others huh. hehe ! i will be asking if
itd be possible for me to work like 2-3 times
a week there. 1 hour $7 is really worth it. ha !

and kaiwen texted me the other time to ask
if i cud give him piano lessons. he said
he needed to learn somm basics about music as
hes goin' ta study some music course at sg poly.
its goin' to get really fun with him as my student.
next saturday it shall be ! (:

iam probably getting some A math and Chemistry
books sooon. i read further into Bio medical and realised
that the modules included Organic Chem /Chemistry.
A math and a bit of C math. iam happy to know that
iam still studying those ! (: ive no idea why either.
haha .. i hope my motivation and passion for all the
Uni stuffs and studies doesnt die down.
keep it going ~ (:

X

calvin! FIRM. hold your head high, stick your
chest out says:
but to be honest, i really really really love to have you as my junior.

calvin! FIRM. hold your head high, stick your
chest out says:
from the bottom-est of my heart.

:). uve been that one boss
whom ive full respect for.

2007-02-20T00:27:00.001+08:00

editted :

mr law played around with fotoshop and produced this.
i think its worth every dime & penny man.
lets applaud for law ! (:

lyrical assault weapon is gon get bigger and bigger.
so is daprofaseaaa (:

*clapclapclap.

***

i dono what can be better than cny.
oh yes, cny and hari raya happening
tgt on the same day. (: but thats not the point,
my point is .. saralimshuhua is on a winning streak.
yes, ;D u have no idea how lucky
i can get nowadayssss.

ppl who don bet or gamble,
i suggest you skip tis part ! (:

so ya noe just tis afternoon.
i was playing baht luck with my cousins.
and there was this new and totally appealing
rule that goes like this ..if you are to get 3 sevens.
which means 21 dian. you will then win
7 times of how much u bet on.
so ta put it simply, if you were to bet 3 bucks.
you will win 21 bucks ;
that is IF you get 3 sevens in a row.
yes, thats as good as it gets.
7 times.

wen i heard about this rule,
i was scoffing at those stupid people
who came up with it. i mean,
damn it man. learn probability.
the probablity of getting 3 sevens in
a role is soooo not impossible.
but guess wat ?

yes, uare smart enough ta noe the rest.

cos initially i was given 2 sevens.
14 dian, it is a must add-on.
so wen i added another card and peered
at it. i just stared at that magical card
with my eyes wide open, and i mean realy wide.
my cousin snatched it from me and gasped.
hahahahaahha. another cousin who wanted
to noe what the commotion was all about too
snatched my card and gasped.

very hilarious, inoe.
you shud have seen the look on their faces.
so i got 7 times of what i bet on.

MUAHAHAHAAHHAXZ.

how lucky can i get.
so many times,
i came with only 5 - 6 bucks as my capital.
but 30 to 40 bucks back home as my winnings.
plus my angbao money ...

MUAHAHAHHAHAHAXZ.
in ah beng terms,it is, sibei steady eh sai boh !
X

ima only seeing my ac fags on wednesday ..
and siewchen's not gon be back till thursday ..
iam gon have to wait till shernwhey's exams
end before i get to meeeeet him.

ahhhh :(
but its ok ! lookin on the brighter side of life,
at least ima looking forward ta wats awaiting me ! (:

i cant wait for branda's birthday ta come.
that will be another crazy fun / 9 jiemeis gathering.
and ... iam pretty sure branda's goin
ta be really happy on that day. * secret smile.
i don remember making her happy ever since
9th o' feb. ahhhh, oh wells brens.
ima make it up ta you , don wory ! (:

X

and if iam not wrong,
i heard from my frens that in bio medical science.
you get ta wear that magical oh-so-cool white lab coat
that all doctors wear at work. ohmygod, can u
imagine ms. saralim in that / flippin' thru my notes
with that all the same black rimmed square glasses ;
frowning slightly and my hair secured into a bun.
iam goin' ta loook so freeeekkin' cooool. hahaha !
and iam really happy cos even my sis is singing praises
for bio medical science :) shes known for having really
high expectations for everything. so yeah man,
sounds quite promising eh /bio medical science.

ima think about it once and for all the moment
i get my JAE postings.(:

***
with perserverance and determination -comes result.
go on sara, fight hard for what u want,
fight reallly hard. (:

ps: brens .. wat an intenseddd feeling i feel oozing out
from the corner of your heart, oh gosh / now
that uve found your ultimate ardent desireee, pls ..
forget me not ! u chao byebye.
heeee, hugs !

2007-02-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

spent a whopping $96 on these nails.
just becos of unawarenesss ...
it was Cny and pricing(s) goes up
by 50% .. z.

but its nice i noe ! so princessssy (:

***

reunion dinner/ look at the wide spread of fooood !

yes iam always happy wenever theres food around.
and dont be mistaken kae ? this is barely one-eighth
of the crowd. we had to take turns to eat cos there
were justtoooo many people. aha.

zzz. dogs.

my nicest auntie with zzz, dogs.

animals. zzz. i hate them :(
there were like 4 dogs walking round the house half
of the time i was there and i was seriously,
scared out of my wits. you can see me trying my best
to squeeze myself into the smallest corner possible,
just bcos i do not want to have any contact with them.
i cant stand animals. z, i dont like them,
especially hamsters. major act cuters.

ok i shud stop complaining (:
thats 2 of my love in the car on my way
ta uncle's house for reunion dinner.
i cant rmb what they were talkin' about
but it must be serious. look at their faces !
aha.

my girlfren/ mother.

i bake tis huat kueh tgt with my auntie ok !
it was super appealing. heh, and my aunt's sooo
sweeet, she decided to bake the white huat cake since
ive always hinted that i love white huat cakes
and not the brown ones. brown ones not nice !
i can already see other heads noding in agreement already.

.
.
.

today's celebration ! (:

:D.

mom warned me that should i post her pics up
on my blog, she will killllll me. eheheks !
alright then, just this once (:

my culinary and catering diploma gugu.

oh no, iam kidding.
but shes a superb cook, no doubt (:

(: me !

oh .. and look what the lack of fotoshop
did to me. this is the original pic.

but thennn , with a lil help from paint.

not bad right ! (:

and i will end off with my current hp's wallpaper !

mr. lim and miss lim.
daddddy, wo ai ni oh ! (:

happy Cny everyone :D.
cest moii ;
princess saraaaa /

2007-02-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

iam bloggin' on notepad right now
cos my internet's sucha crying shame.
haha. this week's rather fast paced i must say.
everyday seems like st valentines.
i still see people carrying bouquets of flowers
walking around grinning from ear to ear in
places such as town, bugis etc. blissful people (:
and needless to say, iam amongst the crowd of
blissful-ness. haha !

i should say that i submitted my JAE
at the eleventh hour. haa, last day
at the lasthour. i was panicking alot ..but all's done right
now and all i have ta do is wait. z, i dono man ..
but ever since i took on Os, ive tis stupid mighty
feeling that i can also now, take on the world.
haha, i guess its bcos all my life, ive never really
went thru soooo much - the way i went thru for my
Os. twas terrible, but fun in a way too.

to all the sec 4/5ns this year, trust me wen
i say. tis year is goin' ta be somm
of the best days of your life. (:
especially during those night studies session.
forget about the studying part cos trust me,
ud only be able ta concentrate for the most ..
an hour or so. after that, u join those
slackers in eating their chips secretly
and plucking those ear pieces in your ear
discussing about the hottest songs in town.
haha, and if uare game enough, join the
boys in catching those irritating disgusting
lookin' night pests swarming all around the
canteen once the sun sets.

my batch of sec 4s know just what i mean.(:

***

digressing, the all too familar festive mood/season
is becoming more and more overwhelming already,
wats with the glorious lightings and
zhu(1) ni xing nian kuai le ! haha. but i was feeling
a lil grouchy n sad this morning .. cos i was thinking
about grand pa .. and what he wud be doing at that
moment if he was still around. Cny is goin' ta be really
different. my first year without yeye .. which means.
no offering of oranges ta him which would
always be reciprocated by a string of Cny
u noe , the cheng yu thing - and the patting
and ruffling of my hair to which he would always say
to me every single year ..

" you are so lucky, hari raya and Cny all tgt.
you must be a really rich girl this year " (:

then il smile, and kiss him on his cheeks -
i noe he loves it wen i shower him w love but he
pretends to accept those kisses like he should
only as a form of formality. haha, he'd always say
busukk laaaaa. ( which means " smelly la " in malay )

i miss him,
i hope hes doing well whereever he is right now.(:
oh yes he must be, hes bin sucha darling.
he should be over at heaven right now watching
over his little ah - an. (:

i just got back from reunion dinner at uncles' place.
great ambience, large crowd, superb foood.
and i realised something ....
that every year during reunion, i see new people / cousins/
auntie inlaw/ 2nd gu por / 3rd sa cek/ yada yada.
the table gets bigger n bigger and the widespread
of food on the table just gets better n better.
my family just keeps multiplying. haha ..
new lifes born, some moved on to a better place.
its really heart warming to see those aunties uncles
reminscing bout the good ol' times, looking at
fotographs with sepia-tone loving and laughin at old
jokes. while me n my cousin mahjong and gamble
allll the way. all grown up, some married ..
but nevertheless. still very much a family. (:

pictures will be uploaded reallllly soooon.
i promise.

reunion dinner aside, iam sure
twas a blast for everyone ! :D.

xxXXoooXXooooXXoooXXooooxxx

so on a serious note.
after about a week of not talking /crying /
emo ing / beating about the bush.
me and brens are finally back together.
( details aside, its between me n her )
(: i finally had a dose of shihui and brens
yesterday. we accompanied shihui ta shop
for her Cny clothes and as usual,
had alot of crazy fun along the way.
i bet il nv forget them in any way,
no matter the distance. they may be
somewhere really far away, all busy
with their own lives but ahhh.
bits n pieces of them are already etched
right into my bonesss. yes,
they are in my bonesssss.

heh, i met kaiwen after that.
who is also / sg poly allll the way.
its really comforting to noe of a no. of
my best pals who are goin' ta sg poly as well.
that way i wont be all lonely shud i decide ta
get in there for good ! bio medical science alll the wayyyyy.

i misssssssss my faggs at AC.
il only get ta see them again next wednesday.
darrell's having a bbq on the 24th of feb
which will be a greatt great clash with DXO night.
doesn bother me, i dont club .. not now, not later.
not in the future i guess. (: but iam more concern
about my cousin's said to be engagement which ithink,
will be taking place on the 24th as well.

hm, we shal see aboutthat ! (:

XXX

iam thinking about joanne right now.
haaaha. cally's also crossin my mind.
and px and xw and alicia serene goldie.

and siewchen's over at msia right now :(
she'd only be back next thurs. zz, BUT ! iam
meeting her straight after shes coming bak ! (:
yay yay yay.

ahhh, wat can i say ?
frens remain and never can end. (:

and a special dedication to loh branda.
.
.
you noe i just cant count on any other fren
as much as i can count on you. tis bond we
have between us, its goin' ta last. and no,
iam not speaking like any other petulant child
who wants something off the toy shelve badly,
iam speaking from my portion of maturity ..
that all these may seem rather hard. but 10 years down
the road, i still see us sipping from the same cup
of bubble tea. (: yes. ive said tis before, but no harm
saying it twice. do or die, ima let tis frenship last.
but my dear fren, it takes 2 hands to clap,
uare smart nough' ta noe wat i mean.
i noe u love me, and from the bottom of my heart.
i love you tooo. (:

-

to mr-oh-your-body-is-fucking-nice-
shernwhey my dragon boater /
( for your information : hes the one on the right )

if u were to ask if i have ever been head
over heels in love with a person before ..
id whisper to you ..
" yes, right now " (:

cest' moii ;
sara . the one that loves you so much.

2007-02-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

to all : please do take the time off to read this ! (:
.
.
.

I arrived at the place where Pete
was now staying. It was - as dreams go -
a surreal land with glorious green mountains,
flowering meadows, and canyons flowing
with waterfalls. Elephants, mastodons, and
people flew about, as though a circus had been
cast into a gravity-free environment.
Only Pete and I were on solid grounds.

" Hey, " he said. " lets go flying "
" I'm not dead, " I reminded him, " I cant fly."
" Oh, right, Well, see over there, that lady
at the stand ? she can rent you some wings. "

He took off, and I turned toward the stand
he had mentioned and duly procured a set
of plastic wings for the bargain price of a quarter.
I slipped them on, walked to the edge of a cliff,
and took off soaring, but uncertain as to what I
should do next. With the wings, I was weightless and
could move toward whatever I wished to see.
All at once, I had a disturbing thought :
How can a pair of cheap wings enable me to fly ?

The next instant I was plummeting,
the weightof my body pushing down,
the wind pressing up,and I knew that soon
I would be smashed to pieces.
How could this be ?
Hadn't I been flying a moment ago ?

In the next instant, I was aloft once more,
weightless. Relieved but still puzzled, I wondered
again how I could be flying with wings that
cost only a quarter - and abruptly, I was falling
again. But I was flying a second ago, I said to myself.
And immediately, I was aloft. At the instant, I realised
the meaning of the dream. Pete spoke ..

" And now you see, its your belief in yourself
that enables you to do what you wish, "
With that, the dream ended.

***

The next night, a monster was set on me and I
began to run. This was the boogieman I had known
since childhood. I ran up a long stairwell, I
ran thru' the dark streets. All the while, Pete
was urging me to stop and turn around and look
at what was chasing me.

" I cant " i cried. " if he touches me, I'll die ! "
" Turn around, " Pete said firmly.

Finally I did. Before me was a monster,
as I had expected, and yes, he was hideous in
every respect : a huge, scaly creature with a
venomous look. But he was also surprised that I
stood there examining him. After a few seconds,
he started to shrink, and then he disappeared.

" You see," Pete said, "
its your own fears that give them the power to chase you. "

And so the dreams went each night,
a visceral truth played out to heights of drama.

XXX ; each, a lesson to be learnt (: XXX

with that, iam ending off.
damn, took me quite awhile to finish that.
aha, i have got lots to say bout my day.
but iam really tired .. hm, to sum it all up
for now. i had an awesome valentines day -
i mean how can i not ? with a fantastic superman
like shernwhey .. who spent close to a hundred
bucks just to get me the perfect bouquet of flowers =)
and dining at country manna, gosh.
now iam even more determine to start my own flora.
more details tomro plus pictures.

i love you immensely supershern * (:
.
.
.
.

and to darrell lim dao wei.
tanks for being so thoughtful man.
i don understand how come uare amongst
one of the selected few to be bestowed with
the gift of reading thru people like open books.
like fiona,you are scaring the wits out of me.
zz. isit you or am i just that predictable.
watever it is, tanks so much for the pink rose
and that letter .. (:

for they signify strength and hope.
2 elements which i need the most right now
to get me thru tis period which iam pretty sure,
is not goin' ta be easy.

chenfiona, yuting, xiangwei wu,
lim darrell, shutian ho and jacindaa.
damn guys, ya'all my bestsss.
X

alright /
happy valentines day to all.
spread zeh love around. (=

ps : to whoeveer who sent me the flowers ...
iam pretty sure u read my blog .. after seeing you
adressing me as the ballerina. very creative huh.
but errrrrrrrrrrrr. iam sory to have those beautiful
flowers sent back ta you. i mean thank you but,,
sorry. ive given my heart to teo shernwhey
wayyyy tooo long ago. (:

2007-02-13T16:01:00.000+08:00

i just cut my nails ..
so depressing :(.
my fingers look so stumpy now lar.
z. i guess there will be no more
manicure appointments for me again ..
at least not for now. ahh wellls, its ok.
ima have to let it grow all over again. (:

so i went over to AC yesterday.
there were a no. o' disputes and all.
but it was all on the low,
many didn wana speak up for fear
of worsening things, twas actually
quite bad lar. i guess everybody was
stressed ah. wats with the upcoming
performances and everything else
squeezed into a week. hm, but iam glad
everything was sorted out in the end !
:D. boss rocks.

anyway,
xiangwei's a magician WU right now.
he dabbles with tricks and stupid
mind reading skills for part time entertainment.
haha. it was hilarious. cos one of the
tricks he tried on me actually failed ..
he was howling and yelping in agony
wen he wasnt able to guess correctly
one o' the cards i chose. si bei steady.

practice ended really fast ..
or rather ; time flies.
before i knew it,
we were all makin' our way to the
mrt station. playing a fool etc. as usual. (:

bumped into wum wum at novena sq.
and we had a talk with him, now that hes
aware about my appealing to AC, he says
he will do watever he can to help me. especially
testimonial wise and stuffs like that. hm,

iam still like in the midst of thinking.

i mean, i noe myself best lar.
its goin to be tough gettin' myself a place in AC.
and seriously, idoubt iam the kind that
can really discipline myself to study every
single day with a strict timetable to follow.
i lose interest in things very easily and iam
afraid that by the time my As are here,
id still be playing arnd, not knowing wen to study.
i do not want to get hit by reality bcos by that time,
its gonna be far too late. imagine wasting 2 years and
settling down in a poly only wen iam 19 years old,
doing my 1st year, when all my frens are goin
on to their 3rd year. that will be the
greatest joke on earth man.

i do not know man .. i have my own
dreams to follow, to fulfill. and to me, my dreams
are make to be realise. but on the other hand,
how bout going to bio medicalscience and
then going on to University to become a
prestigious doctor of some sort. ? ahhh, seee.
thats what i mean , dillema. yet on the other hand,
getting in AC will not be easy. it will not be easy at all.
zzz.

so for now ; more or less, ive decided on tis.
its either ACJC only, ( i guess ? )
or Optometry / Bio Med Sci in a gd poly. (:

argh, i nidda get down ta somm serious tinking !

XxxxXoOxXoOXOxoXoXoXoXOOXOXOX

yup ! so back ta my day.
i saw victoria tooo at novena sq.
who looked most depresssing :(
my dear, 8 nos. away .. thats how
near iam, just press 8 nos. on ur
fone and id be there to give u a
listening ear, anytime of the day. (:

went over to fiona's house after that
for dinner. we were playing a foool,
laughing at the stupid mrt groper etc.
i stayed on until 10 plus before making my
way home. oh my, iam pretty sure we wud have
talked till dawn if it wudn be for her
unbelivable excessive amount of homework.
jermah is soooo cute. i love talking to fiona man.
she makes me realise sooo many things.
XXX

can i have that kinda tan like you wonderwall ?

Valentines's day tomro ! (:
shernwheyshernwheyallthewayyyy :D.
-

u proved me wrong.refer to me with an
uncanny resemblance o' a mind reader, i dono ?

2007-02-12T02:19:00.000+08:00

3.01 am.

i went to the dentist today to have
my teeth checked. wen i saw dr. koh-
i flashed a smile at him, grittingly.
den he told me how cute i looked with
that all the same vampire tooth.

i tink dr. koh is senile,
he tells me the same thing every session.
makes me bored.

" brush here twice, side also, use the back
of ur toothbrush to clean ur tongue, do u floss
every other day or everday ? "

oh, but hes a darling ol' man. (:
so kind. i told him about the courses
which ive chosen for my JAE postings ..
and that particular JC ima ( most proly, not confirm)
put as first choice ..
he said they were all goood. (:
wat a comforting phrase.

i have been reading up on courses since
yesterday and right now .. ive like 5 courses
in mind which iam seriously attracted to.
One of them being optometry ..
and the other one .. bio medical.
but iam still in a dillema. i wish they have
literature studies in polytechnics ... ive always
loved literature, its the only subject
i would consider beauitiful. ha ..

come to think about it.
i was quite taken aback wen i learnt about the
distinction i earned for combined humans
from mrs cheah minutes before i received my results,
she told me she cudn hide it anymore as it
had been gnawing on her relentlessly for
that whole morn' aha.

i was shocked of cos, for me being me ..
ive never pass social studies my whole life.
so that can only mean 1 thing.
my literature must have helped me a bundle.
happy only. (:

so back to what i was saying,
my choices. yes, ive already discussed
with my family last night and
they didn really say anything.
mom ended off with a ..
" u noe, as long as u are happy, we are fine
with watever u choose. i think uare big nough'
to noe wats best for you. "

yeah man, i hope iam ...

so now, ima have to wait till tuesday
to discuss my choices with shernwhey
before filling up my JAE form on tuesday night !

xxx

heading over to AC tomro -
helping out at stormZ. (:
gona have to talk to ms too and instructor
about somm relevant stuffs tooo.

iam still thinking very hard /

shernwhey :
happy 12th (:
i really donot know what ive
done to deserve somone like
you. i know ive been behaving
so petulantly these days ..
but i noe there will always be you whos
patient nough' to talk to me ..
to sound me out.
iam not giving my heart to anyone else.
(: iam entrusting it to only u.
u noe iam never lost these days,
i mean, how could i ? with a world revolving
around only yyou.

i love you.
oh yes, i do.

they always ask me wats good about you.
but i will never tell, for iam afraid they will
fall in love with you too .. (=
XXX

dreams are my reality.
yes, ima do whatever it takes.

2007-02-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

:D :D :D :D :D.

sara : mrs suneeth, pls don tell me anything.
il just take the stupid paper and chao.
suneeth : sure dear, oh. u might need tis thou. * frowns.
sara : Wat wat ?
* looks at ite booklet.
sara : watttttf ? ITE ?!
* tears started welling up my eyes.
suneeth : * shrugs. yes, u get wat i mean ....
sara : * cries and walks away.

***

sara : shernwhey shernwhey iam not gona make it.
wonderwall : cmon lar idiot u noe ul make it.
sara : criesss and criess.
wonderwall : * holds my shoulder. saraaa cmon !
sara : i don wna open .. i don wan i don wan.
iam bound to go to ite.

fiona arrives *

fiona : * opens booklet.
wonderwall : peeks and smile. (:
sara : shernwhey don play !
fiona : *smiles. look at it urself.

sara :
SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

***
haha. yes, iam happy. very happy.
guess what, iam eligible for even
Optometry ok ! watthehellll.
hahaha .... i dont have much to say.
i only remembered hugging shernwhey and
fiona and alot of other teachers who congratulated
me after learning bout my r5 and r4 respecitvely.
haha, and then ... proceeding to scold mrs suneeth
for being so mean to me after that.
she scared the helll out of me lar, like seriouslyyyyyyy.
z !

ive had calls coming in for the whole day
asking me about my result and everyth else.
lol, i cant stop running around after receiving
my piece of paper (: there were some who were
of course, upset about results .... but...
sigh, i dono.
:
.
.

thank God, thank God, thank God.(:
u made Sara happppyyyyy.
and yes, il remember my promise :D.

*** X

to daddy, mummy and jiejie !
never seen a family more supportive than ya all.
thanks for all the hugs and kisses. ahaha.
i noe uare all happy, and iam glad. very glad.

zhang xian shen :
:D. uare zeh best mannn.
u hide away my fears, like always.
wen i was on the verge of crying.
u were there. right behind me ..
telling me iwas gon do wellllll. (:
ahhh. and i was laughin' secretly to
myself when fiona told me about ur
trembling hands :p. now i noe u always
noe wats best for me. smmmuacccks !

siewchen u stupid kuku.
u have beeen my greatest encouragement
all these months,sigh, thanks for beliving in
me and never once doubting me.u were there
thru it all,and you dono how well u areat making
me feel all better.u noe i love u even thou u
always torture me =x

fionachen :
u have been amazing.
really man. i ....i can never
thank you nough for
everything that uve done for
me. hahah ... remember ?

" all the bitches up therefor me to choooose " :p.

jacinda and yuting :
u guys made me cry big time lar.
jac, u noe how u flooded my fone
with handphones n msgs which will
later turn to hysterical screams
and I LOVE YOU SARAAAA-ings haha !
yuting, counting down with me
every single day with words of love ..
awww. who else wud tink about it but u?
i mean it wen i say uare not just
another fren to me aight. (:
u are special. very special.

xiaangwei darrell shutian :
more than my seniors (:
more than just ordinary fags ...
more than words (:

to everybody else who congratulated me :
iam thankful. very thankful.
and iam very very happy with life
right now. never felt more contented.

now all i need. is a setballs assurance from -
u noe where. but even if i dont,
iam still in the midst of planning
my choices to poly :D. Optometry is set.
dang, my life i believe//
its goin to get better from now ..
yes God ?

/ and i noe what iam goin' to say nextwill definitely shock u, but .....

iam planning to try appealing to ACJC.
yeap, wish me luck ! (:

ps : is it just me, best fren ?

2007-02-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

iam crying ... and i hate it.
crying is a form of weakness.
i feel so weak and numb all of a sudden.
but its a different kind of weakness and numbness.

.
.

i broke down wen i saw fiona's private msg.
i cried further wen i saw siewchen's sub nick.
i wiped my tears away wen i heard wonderwall's voice.
read tru those encouraging msgs from them again and again.
and i clasped my hand wen i picked up junguo's
you-noe-you-can-do-it-call.

wen the line went dead /

i ... uttered a silent prayer.

gees. even mrs suneeth called.
ah ... a teacher like her. (:

X
its goin to mean so so so much to me.
only He knows how much.

2007-02-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

i woke up to find him at one end
of the bed, and me .. at the other end.
so weird, i thought to myself.
i had a vague memory of us cuddling
together the previous night.
so i rolled over to him and tapped his nose.
he woke up - looked at me and then
scrutinized his eyes .. i gave him a puzzling look
and asked ..

" do i look ugly in the morning ? "

he said,
" never did. never did remember seeing
an ugly side of you. "

(:
***

but i still feel ugly now.
cos iam down with sore eyes :(.
actually .. it was a last-week-thing.
but they never got better. z.
nowadays ,i realised that the whole
family talks to me without lookg at
me in the eye. cowards ... haha !

but daddy kissed my forhead just now.
(: he was asking me about my results.
* dang dang dang.

as usual, i told him.
" dont pin too much hope on me lar,
i already have a sister whos goin'
to be a teacher .. u cant expect
both of ur daughters to go up to
universities right .. God is fair ! "

then he laughed.

i dono,
iam afraid of disappointing them
but\ at the same time,
doesnt it happen all the time sara.
all the time. tsk tsk tsk.
-
my darling fiona will be with us tomro.
mr. zhang wonderwall will aso be with me.
xiangwei jac jackson yuting st darrell
made a pact with me to call them
and tell them my results regardless
of the outcome. they have been really
sweeeet, texting me and counting down
with me the days till ..... tomro.

but idoubt il call them.
i don even think il have the mood to.
il leave it to fiona to tell them i guess.
actually, sad to say - even after fretting
over my results for the past few months ..
iam still not prepared for the worst.

i dono man.
i cant imagine looking at my
certificate with Ds on it.
especially for my relevant subjects.
seriously ... who can ? and my dear frens,
i noe u guys will surely say " u can want lar "
but .. much as i want to believe it ..
i know myself, how badly i screwed
mmaths paper 1.

u noe i can barely picture the scenario
in which iam reallly happy with my results.
i rly cant imagine myself jumping for joy,
congratulating myself gleefully.
talking nonsensical things deliriously.
like in a state of euphoria. yeah man.

yet on the other hand,
i can picture myself, so vividly ..
holding that piece of paper in my
trembling hands, slowly tearing the sides
and opening it up with a tear sliding
down my cheek.

wah na beh/
iam behaving like an emofuck again.
haha !
xxx

stil,
looking on the brighter side ..
tomro will be the last grand reunion
for bhss 4e/5ns 2006.

tanks to each and everyone of u
who took the trouble to count
my r5 again n again n again with me.
(:
-

" Faith is ; the confident assurance that
something we want is going to happen. It is
the certainty that what we hope for
is waiting for us even thou we still cannot
see it ahead of us. "

thanks thanks thanks for all the well wishes loveys (:

God, pleaseee.
u noe what i wish forrr.
saraaaa pls have faithhh (:

and i miss branda awfully.
come bak sooon.

2007-02-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

2006's at its best * (:

when mdm you deicided to transfer me
over to band A from band B.
i was over the moon.
not bcos i was in the supposedly best class.
but bcos branda serene xw alicia were all
in that class. and the band i used to be in,
which is band b1 , i didn really like it -
i mean. no one from my clique came from
Band B1. most were from band B2.
plus,XXOOOOxx used to be in the same
band as me .u noe, that topaz long hair girl
w braces from 4e1. the one ive nv liked or try
to appreciate before. ahahaha !
nothing personal, i just don feel comfortable.

oops, over share? ;D.

so yes,
mdm you never liked putting me and brens tgt.
she said we'd probably forget her presence and
start our nonsense agn and ..
she cud never be more right.

during her lessons,
me n brens wud be yakkering loudly.
much to everyone's discomfort.
u see the other pupils shiftin'
uncomfortably in their seats,
once in awhile lookin' over to us /
smiling meekly ..
hoping that we wud be considerate enough
to yes - shut the F up.

but we never did. we wud talk,
and engage more people
into our conversation.
and then do silly things - like collecting handphones
and secretly putting them on the visualiser
for everyone to see. ( see above pic )
we'd drive mdm you crazy and she wud
always shout at us in that ugly high pitch voice
which wud slowly but surely turn into a murderous falsetto.

" SHUHUA ! CHU QU ! GEI WO CHU QU !!! "
( shuhua ! get out ! get out ! )
" xin bu xin wo ba ni diao hui band B "
( or il transfer you back to band b ! )

to which il slowly "slide" down onto
my seat ever so innocently ( giggling ),
and say sory to her with that
i-swear-i-didn-mean-it-look.

i still remember vividly,
where theres one occasion ..
she got so pissed off with me and
brens that she seperated us.
but u noe, even death wont do me
and branda part, so we ended up
shouting to each other across the
table each time we had something
interesting or funny to share.

mdm you got so mad she sent me out of the class.
( yes its always me, cos brens noe wen to shut up
just wen mdmyou's about to blow her top. haha ! )
and after the end of the lesson,
i apologized to her and hugged her.
hahaha ! shes a darling larrr.
no difference from a mother.
i love her all the same. (:

***

i seriously dont remember when was
this taken .. perhaps my sec 2 days.wen
i was 14 years old, sooo young !!
my good ol 2e4. (:

haha! (:2330483232484876 years ago.
see, weve all grown so much.
the stupid " ok-sorry-so-i-backstab-you "confrontations.
hahha ! the times we laughed and cried tgt.
ah, the warmthness of compainionship (;

and then look how much weve drifted apart now.
all the empty promises of meetin' up
and never forsaking one another. z !

but u guys still mean alot to me.

xxxOoOoxxxx

:)

3e2's trip to i-dont-know-where.
hahaha. me xw and tans were living in our own world.

***

nothing changes - ever after 10 years ok ?. (:

weeeeeee !

dug all this fotos out from myonline foto album. (:

gosh,
sara's 17 years old now.
big big ger, about to step foot
onto the grotesque world out there -
where people are always busy working ..
not really knowing their purpose
in life. so sad right ? but il make the
best out of everything.

my teenage years had/have been awesome.
and i want to grow old gracefully w mr. zhang
and everybody i lovelovelove ;D.

/
talked to brens on the fone til
like4am last night,
shes over at msia now ..
and will only be back on wednesday :(

loh, my best fren. always always my best fren.
***

oh, went CNY shopping today.
bought clothes and all with almost the whole
darling lims' family. grandma.. aunties, mum and sis.
so niceee ! (: i love gatherings like this.
burnt about $200 on 2 dresses.
wo hen xi huannnn (:

alrighttttt,
iam gon watch superstar-cum-sg n thai match !
takecare allll ;D.

2007-02-02T16:02:00.000+08:00

" from the warmth of first acquaintanceship
to the fondness of later frenship to
the exuberant love of exciting companionship
to the profound commitment of a soulmateship. "

the oh-so fine 4-stage gradation of emotional attachment.
so true huh. (:
***

anyway, look what ive got here.

the key to hapiness is to take pleasure
in what you do have.
actually, when you look at in on a biological level,
hapiness is just like any drug :
its a cascade of chemicals in ur' brain
that stimulates certain areas and causes
an overall change in ur physiology for
a brief amount of time.

What makes hapiness so unique is that
evolution has taught us to go all outj
ust to get this feeling.

so indeed,
we can safely conlude that hapiness is
the drug everyone's tried and everyone's
hooked on.

i mean .. put it this way.
who does not want to seek for hapiness ?.
(:

ps: i found tis post from one of my past entries,
was amazed with what i wrote, haha. so ive decided
to post it up again :p

xxOoooOoOOOOOooooxx

so yeah,
days have been great.
iam currently reading this book -
Unhurried thoughts at my funeral
by Catherine Lim.
shes more than just an amazing writer.
i love how she'd create melodramatic
scenes out of everyday happenings
which are so ordinary.

i even missed a bus stop while
reading this book okay, haha.
not exactly a thriller or an action-packed book.
but ... hm, how should i put it.
its the simplicity of wats happening in a
complicated world that catches my attention lar ;D.
-

caught prisonbreak last night.
as usual, i was sittin' at the
edge of my seat for 2 whole hours,
squealing and squirming.
praying that they wouldn get caught.
and wen tea bag's hand got hacked,
i was practically rolling on the floor
yelping in pain wen it doesnt
even have anything to do with me.
(==.) such are the elements of a
true blue thriller. ahaa !

i cant wait for the next season
wen baby miller's dress sense
becomes impeccable. i saw the preview
of the show in which he is wearing
tis formal suit while holding a gun ..
totally - a HOT bad boy who noes how
to behave. * salivates.

hahah. and did u hear what that black
woman said last night in prison break !

" sara has a thing for scofielddddd. "

yesyesyes, so true so true so true.
! baby miller , i donot care if
uare gay ! (: uare still ranked as one
of those top guys i dream t shag. rar !

botak angmohs are ......
the epitome of hotness.
goodness. (**.)
***

just a couple of days ago,
i was chilling out with fiona after practice at ac.

i asked her,
so whats your plan tonight ?
she replied,
YOU :D.

haha. so sweeeeet right,
so we chatted till like 9 plus .. and
she had to go meet her bro for supper.

if u asked me if theres anyone
whom i have full respect for,
its gotta be her.
i wudn even flinched at that question,
she taught me so many things.
so many valuable things/lessons which
i noe iam bound to carry with me thru life. (:

oh yes,
Olivier caught me peckin'on fiona's cheek
during practice and for the rest of the day,
he looked so so so traumatized.
Oh Olivier, you just have to learn how to
get used to these. wakaka ;D.

so now that ive learnt from mydear xw
that 9th of feb willbe the release of our Os
results.next wednesday shall be my
last practice at ac orchestra !
ahhhh, dont wana talk about it.
-

i don understand why a said-to-be optimistic
person like me could become so pessimistic
wen it comes to stuffs like this,
i don even remember lookin'
on the brighter side of life man.
maybe i did ... once in a blue moon.

z. but i shall i shall i shall,
dont wory. (:

just got off the fone with wonderwall.
hes dumb, hahha. hes dumb lar...

ah, so random.
iam offff ! (:

takecare goodies.
/

xx actually noes wat a wombat is.
hm, amazing indeed ;D.

2007-01-31T01:36:00.000+08:00

:D/ hokay !
ive decided to blog.
so if my stupid computer decides
to practice bitchcraft on me again.
ul probably not see this entry.
z. iam ultra irritated by my comp !
-

anyway, ineed to share something
really interesting w yaul!
my 11 year old cousin was chattin
with tis girl who claims to be somone
who has a really huge crush
on him the other time on msn...
and guess wat i saw ?

( i didn copy n paste it so pardon
me cos i donot excel in ah lian language :D. )

doo euu knnoe it hUrtxx says :
ii reallieee llurrbbs euu de nehxx ..de3 otharr time,
euu ssaid euuu lykeegurlls wibb shawtttt hairr ndd thenn ii
went tuUhx cutt itt shawwwtt fe3rR uuuiee.ishhhit niccce???

aKonvicted :
i don even understand a fuck uare talkin' about.
***

HAHAHAHHAHAHA.
need i say, like biao jie like biao di !
so cute rightttt. ha.
i squeezed his shoulders and gave
him the thumbs up sign after that and
he giggled cheekily to me while showing
me the shhhhh sign tgt with the
rock on sign. awwww !
so cute, so charming, even jiejie
is in love with u. hahha.
-

aight, so back to my day.
:) i went out with ladyzhen today.
eh, ladyzhen sounds so corny.
haha. okok, leesiewzhen ! (:
aiya, wats wat that i can say.
shes a darling, shes a darling.
shes really a darling. (:
even though she made me wait for like
close to an hour ( first time in history)
she gave me roses as a form of
apologyyyyyy OK. aw. aw. aw.
she gave me 3 of them and told
me that all 3 add up to the words -
i love you. ahhhhhhhhhhh.

iam a total sucker for roses n zhen lar !
:D.

oh yes, while i was waitin' for siewzhen's
arrival. i actually went to tis bookstall
over at novenasq and browsed thru all the
books which caught my eye.i learnt so many
things just from that mere 1 hour of reading.
ahhhh .. how interesting man.
really gon hit that place again sommday !
and i saw soooo many peeps there. haha.

anyway,
it was like a very simple meeting w zhen.
a simple lunch, simple get together
and stuffs like that. but i loved it.
we talked non stop. thats what i like
about her, u feel so loveddd around her.
yes siewzhen ? (:

(:

zhen had ta go off after that :(
so we went ta surprise surprise
brens with a visit for i intend
to acc brens for dinner to day
after her work ends. haha. and
her 2 myanmar frens are soooo
ultra cute.
:D. but brens is cuter, wakaka !

ive nothing much to say ......
i guess brens noes why.
sigh :(.
stupid sara.
- - -

digressing,
iam goin over to ac tomro !
one of my last few times there already.
:( how depressing. oh, and talkin'
about tis. iam reminded of my
Os results again. mr wum actually
said its goin' to be released
on the 2nd of feb. arg.
2 days from now !
tis is crazzzzyyyyyyyy /

i had another nightmare the other time -
that i actually scored 11/30 for my pp1 english.
gosh gosh gosh.
arh, i shud stop bein' so anal
about the whole thing already laaaa.
:(
***

which reminds me,
i had an emotional meeting with
my darling commitee the other time
at CO. haha.. most of us were
reduced to tears after trashing
things out. ahhhhh ..in a way,
i do feel a senseof achievement ...
esp. after i seeing msn nicks with
" CO ROCKS ! " on it. ahaa ..

my good ol' Chinese Orchestra.
do us all proud ok ?(:
/

to brens my love.
i was close to tears wen
u lied on my shoulder afew
hours ago too if u werent aware.
sigh, iam sorry.

DAMN, did that just sound like
a couple who were recovering from
the aftermath of a quarrel ?
hahahaha !

oh, and before i forget,
me n brens walked the whole
of orchard with a deeeep blue thick line
drawn across slightly lower than where
our eyebags wud be. haha,
we drew for each other while
playin' with make up samples
at anna sui's. so hilarious ..
will post the pics up sommday !

its 2.05 am now ! (:
night is still young,
so iam off to keep myself
busy with the lil things ima do now.

takecare allll.
stay happy @ happy ! :D.

w hugs n kisses ;
limsara X (:
oOoooOOoooOOOOo

i miss wonderwall zhang ! :D.

2007-01-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

random; rose's wiltered; so am i. says:
hey babe.(:
princessss' / sara* X barista ; ur body's stayin' vicious. says:
YO YO YO
random; rose's wiltered; so am i. says:
(((((((((:
random; rose's wiltered; so am i. says:
your mom is pretty.(:
princessss' / sara* X barista ; ur body's stayin' vicious. says:
hahaha. she is ?
princessss' / sara* X barista ; ur body's stayin' vicious. says:
LOLLL. THANKS MAN !

yes iam flaunting.
its not the first time
sommone said that .. plus.
my mom is beautiful (:
***

so i met siewchen and yiwen the rs
in the bus today. tell me,
how unlucky can i get ?. haha.
i was with my mom, went ta meet her
at tpy after ac cos she nided to make somm'
orders for book shelves n stuffs. (:

anyway.
i was all the way, crossin' my fingers, toes
and eyes that i donot meet anyone ..
cos i was so shaggggg. haha.
i mean after practice at ac and
playin' outdoor activites w all o' them.
my hair was in a mess and i didn
look the least presentable at all.
but its ok larh. siewchen loves
me even if i were to look like cinderella's
stepsister. (: just like shernwhey.
hor siewchen ? :D.

i asked siewchen to guess wat i had for
dinner and wen she said she nided somm
clues, i said .. " it cheeps "
she immediately guessed it was
chicken rice ... how smart (:
***

was practicing bitchcraft w
victoria over on the fone just now.
haha, girls / u get wadda mean.
n i actually felt bad about it.
damn, no idea wats happenin' to me -
ahhh. its goood n bad in a way.
so yeah (: no comments for now.
-

yups. as usual.
ac was heartwarming.=)
i missed everyone there cos i
skipped 2 practices.
( birthday celebrations and stuffs)
jackson had C-cab meetin' so
both the heads were like mia-ingt
he whole day, only saw them at the
end of the day. and huang di's
so thoughtful. sighs /

so wen jackson saw me, he went.
"hey girl ! eh xOOX is here, better be careful ah"
(: thoughtful, nice, yes.

but gosh.

anyway.
i didn get to see fiona for 2 weeks alr.
the angel msged me after prac. to check
if i was ok .. as usual,
she read thru' me like a book. oh fiona.
ive ur name carved in my heart.
(:

yes, the emo temo group. ahaha !

check out st's fone !

ta ai wo men ! hahha.

hualalala, xia yu liao !

yes, xiangwei's amongst the crowd now, cheerin' for sg.

ahaha !
***

and i had an issue with one girl there.
hm .. its her, not me. (:
-

so wen practice ended,
waited for the usuals and
trotted down the street with quick
steps, it was rainin' heavily and
weird to say, everyone was pretty
much havin' fun entertaining one another.
hahaa. trained home with jacinda xiangwei
and frens.

aw, limlim is happy.
***

and ive decided to come up with
a resolution. (: ahhh. il come
up with random ones thruout the year.
so yeah, tis time.
ive promised myself not to find
a stable job yet .. at least, not anytime near.
( except piano teacher - part time) (:
i guess i wud only look for ..
part time ones ... ya 'noe, maybe those
that allows me to work for like 3-4 times
a week only. hahah.

cos i figured that iwud proby spent
the nx 1/2 ofmylife workin' my ass off
like all the other adults. so yea,
don wana waste an integral part of
my youth to workkkkk just yet.
(: (:
***

anyway,i noe which fone i wana get alr.

freakin' beautiful i noe.

nothing more classier than samsung e500 GOLD.

my favourite colour lehhh ! :D.
hen piao liang hen piao liang.
tai piao liang lerr !
-

random pics.( all from my fone, not camera :)
coutrtesy of jg* :D.

yes. airen :D.

drummer and me.

hahahahaa. iam jay chou !

my niceeee cake godpapa got for me.

mom holdin' my hand to cut the cake :D.
***

n il end off with tis pic !

my wonder wall got me these cakes
from zeh coffee connection just to set
the atmosphere right for my bdae
and ofcos ..make me cry n cry n cry.
hahah.

yes i heard yaul say that in unison ...
" SO SWEEEEEEET "
-

i love u zhang :D.

2007-01-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

ahh, feels so comfortable
wen u get to blog at home !
my computer's showin no signs
of attitude problem.
ok,i shall not say anymr lest it gets
sensitive again. and guess wat.
siewchen thinks its bcos of her that
my comp's doin so well. she claims
her mental power is wats keepin' my
comp going. z !
alright siewchen, if it makes u
happy sayin that. haha,
cant wait for tuesday huh ..
zhen shi qi si wo ler !
***

my nose's havin' its menses now.
it keeps bleeding and iono why either.
must be my pre menstrual symptoms.
no wonder iam feelin' so grouchy
nowadays. (:

woh, seriously feels good to be able
to blog about random stuffs ! :D.

and i think my vision's worsening.
i see doubles most of the time.
say like 2 days ago while i was at sentosa.
all the girls i saw there
have 4 boobs, all 4 hangin side by side.
:(.

and xiangwei called me early in the morn'today.
it was a personal attack.( details aside )
i was woken up by my fone's vibration
which sounded exactly like a fart.
got me rather irritated ..
but things turned out to be goood.
haha !

i slept at 5am last night.
was being entertained all the way
so i didn mind a single bit.
woke up at 330 pm today
with calls and msgs interruptions
inbetween. iam still gettin' bday
greetings up till now.
quite a turnoff actually.
it makes me upset knowing
that my frens cant remember my exact
birth date. but its ok - distant frens afterall ! (:

i finished the lil something i made
for my friends over at ac tis afternn.
didn see the point of goin' out cos
it wasn early anymore. and iam proud
of myself wen i saw the end products.(:
still have a few more to go.

and i miss brens.
was suppose to meet her today ...
shes so cute. she told me she
nearly cried wen she cudn contact
me the other time i was mia-ing.
( the time wen i was out 2 days
without my fone ) yeahhh.
oh branda. (:

my nails are peeling. boooo.
and i heard wentworth miller's gay.
WATTHAFUCK. i just watched prison break
and he is just soooo hot.

if i cud choose to shag 5 guys.
itd be shernwhey,
ashton kutcher, (BE MINE PLEASE.)
david beckham and of cos wentworth miller.
i don mind cristiano ronaldo too.
ahhh ... how about you ? :D.

oh, n i saw all the courses which various polytechnics
offers n i found myself diggin' deeper n deeper into
- are u ready for tis-
Optometry. i see great future in it. L1r4 9 points. ha !
xw toldme about psychology and com. services,
caught my eye tooo ! (: and i realised that in psychology
or psychiatry .. it is ( most of the time )
the patient who does the job ...
if u get wadda mean. but i dont mind ! (:
and then ...mass com and early childhood.
ahhh, watever it is,
i just wish i can at least get into a decent poly. :(

actually, to tell u a lil stupid secret.
ive always dreamt to be a lawyer.
( still dreaming la actually )
i wana be a defence lawyer or
a human rights lawyer ! a top one (:
becos i wan the bad to go to jail and
the accused to be set free.
i wana have the power to manipulate thinkings
and i wana show everybody the power of words.
most importantly, i want world peace.
yes, i wish to change the world some day.

theres a line in tis song which says.
" a lil love will get us thru. "
yeahman, all we ever need is a lil more love,
and love isnt all about sex.
it seriously depressin' to read articles
that says how people are abusing sex.
ahh, don make me go on .. il nv stop. haha !

OK !
iam digressing so much.(:
iam gon stop here !

takecare peopleeee (''v'')

2007-01-24T18:18:00.000+08:00

23rd january 2007.

* cats walk down the aile.

say hello to the 17 years ol
big and mighty limsara/shuhua.(: (: (:
***

yesterday was phenomenal.extravagant,
special. perfect. one of a kind.

and to shernwhey the kuku.
why do you always have to make me cry.
you dont even spare me wen its my birthday.
neh heh heh.
***

so iam using notepad to blog now ..
my computer goes crazy each time
i gain access to the internet.
it switches off on its own.
haha ..so now, iwill have to blog,
and then quickly copy n paste to
my blogger before my computer
shuts down. such an irritating computer.
but its exciting lor.

(: mm. i have tis urge to blog down
everysingledetail of how i celebrated my birthday
yesterday- and its goin to be really long.
soooo for once,
iam not gon let laziness overtake me. yeah !

i headed down to sentosa yesterday.
woke up at 6.42am. for no apparent reasons.
ithink its partly bcos iam excited and retarted.
i mean, after not meetin shern for so long ..
( bcos that guy have so many other commitments.)
it makes me smile just thinkin that iam able
ta meet him on tis special dayy :D.

sentosa was .... filled with lots of bikini clad babes.
but twas really relaxing and alll.
for once, ididn even think about my O level results.
shernwhey knows just how to align my thoughts you see.
all i had was fun and more fun.
plus i didn bring out my fone, i left it atop my piano.
no distractions .. no disturbance.
it just felt like me/him agnst the world. (:
( my sincerepologies to those who had trouble reachin' me)
(: (:

lunched at vivo city. had sotong char cravings.
so we bought this bigbig sotong char plate with 10 limes.
( bcos ive always loved sotong char with extra limedroplets)
and shernwhey told me not to eat so much.
i was wondering why, but he simply said

" don bombard me with countless questions lehhhh "(==.)

uhhuh, fine.

saw bee ting, limlin, junjie etc etc. (: (:
and limlin gave me a packet of candy empire's chocolate
( after knowin' it was my bdae, to which iam eatin now ) (:
shernwhey warned me again not to eat so much.
i was hardly even listening.
we were both busy developing our pictures
out at the kodak kiosk.
they are beautiful, really are.
iam puttin'one extra special one in my wallet. (:

bythetime we finished doing tis n that,
it was alr 6pm.
shernwhey told me to follow him to harbourfront's tower 2,
each time rejectin' me wen i asked wherewe were headin to.
it was only after the security guard said.

" oh cable car ahhh ! that wayyyyyy "

did i noe where we were goin.
but shernwhey said that wasn the highlight.
i was plagued with many uncertainties.
but still, the cable car ride was awesome.
i took 3094204923042 pictures and screamed
each time the cable car tilted a lil to the left or right.
we reached mt faber in like 10 mins time,
and i asked shernwhey for the 7th time.

" can u please tell me where we are headin to ? "
he lifted up his hand with a receipt that says - sky dining.

(so now i noe why i wasn allowed to gorge myself with food. )

i looked at him with my mouth slightly agap and looked away.
yes, i do hear about sky dining once inawhile.
the wonderful adventure of couples dining in a cable car
decorated oh so beautifully with their
favourites songs playin'on-the-go.
but twas too much for me,
did i deserve all these from him..
all which was worth a good few hundred bucks ?.
i focused on one point of the skyand told myself not to blink,
yes.tears were wellin' up my eyes.
i was soooo gan donggggg !

i wudn be afraid to admit that my hands were
tremblin' went i reached out for the exquisite
fork n spoon while i was in the cable car.
we were havin' tis 3 course dinner in the cable car
while it brings us across sentosa mt faber etc.
and the scenery above was breath takin.
yes it was. wen u look down,
and see the whole landscape bathing
in the warm glow of sun.
u wudn mind dyin' right on the spot.
ok perhaps iam exaggerating,
but that was exactly how i felt.

the cable car was alluring.
definitely classic, like it was meant
for only the richest. n i savoured everymoment in it.
during the 2nd course,i heard shernwhey whispered to the waiter.

" er... can u present the thing now.? "

i looked at him with that
pls-darling-no-more-surprises-for-tis-is-enough look.
and out came the waiter with a bouquet of flowers
in his hands. he presented to me the flowers w a big smile
on his face and i cried one more time. a bouquet of red roses,
with a white one in the middle. beau-ti-fulll.
iwas sooo touched, yes sooo touched.
i looked at shernwhey and sighed -
bcos right at the point,
i felt i was the luckiest girl on earth.

the rest of the trip was spent with me and shern
shoutin' to random rnb songs and screamin nonsensical thing.
everything felt so perfect.

i knew there and then who i wana love for the rest of my life.

and if tis wasn enough, shern gave me paris hilton's justme
perfume as a birthday gift and his dragon boat shirt complete
with a bear holdin' a bouquet of roses ( which i long wanted )
ahhh, iam at a loss for words.... (''v'').
***

so i didn return home only until tis afternn
and i noe i made everybody worried,
espcially my sister.
so to my beloved sister,
bcos i noe ul be readin' tis .. i wana apologize
for raising the tension in u, ure zeh best.

my hp was flooded with missed calls and countless msgs.
n bcos i didn have the chance to thank anyone
who sent me bdae msgs last night, ima do it right now.

to : em, huiya, michelle, yanying, xiuwen (''v'') pisai no.1,
mathieu, fionanachennnn ( for the HOT e-card :p), calvinnn,
marcus poh, chew ping, kharkeat, eugene, pascal, andre,
saufi,eunice, shutian the walrus, joanne,
shufinah my darling cousin, wuenyin, ryan, xiangwei (: (: ! ,
jackson :D, yiwen the rockstar, norman, px, yuting,
keith, yipeng, victoria darling, clifton, tannya,
siewchen baobei, wenyuan, melvinder, junguo,
my fellow same mixed blood heritage-r, jinwang,
liting, nijam and god daddddddyyyyyy and god mommyyyy.

( and plus those whom ive forgotten )

and my familyyyyy.
daddy for the money and the expensive earrings
( which i said i wanted just as a passin comment
wen i past by a jewellery shop with him )
mommy for the cake and money.
and sister - for everysingle thing.
without you alll, i wudn be where iam.

and to Qiangs,who practically counted down with me.
thanks so much.i cudn have a better 17th birthday.

and of course to you zhangshernwhey,

i can never thank you nough' for all
that you have done. i love you.
u will always be my wonderwall.
- sealed with a kiss/

pics will be uploaded altogether when
i go down to my mobile lan shop.
neh heh heh !

takecare everyone (:
lim is super duper mighty power happy.

2007-01-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

lil' melissa looked at me and squeezed my hands.

" chei chei, arent chu goin ta lemme try ta brownies ? "

my hands frozed halfway to my mouth.
sheepishly, i lowered the brownie,
broke off a section and held it in mel's direction.

" sho.. wat are we goin' ta learn taday.? "

i looked at her, stroked her hair and smile.

" anything that willmake u happy. " i said.

she looked at me with those pleadin' eyes,
and i knew instantly wad she wanted ---
another bite off my delicious brownie.

lil' kids can be sucha nuisance at times ..
yet most of times, they have the ability
to melt even the hardest crater in our hearts ..

so once again, i was caught in a fresh
onslaught of memories. but this time,
it was different. it was causing much hurt.
i closed my eyes and for a brief instant,
gave in to the turmoil in my head.
i could feel my mind giving way as a torrent
of emotions rushed through me.
i rode the surge like a runaway rollar coaster
and opened my eyes.

nothing substantial .... except the depth of
emotional confusion - sharp and cutting as
physical pain. a level so deep it could only be
one of dreams and nightmares.

" sara ! " my sis yelled.

i felt that voice came out of nowhere,
an unwelcome ( or welcoming) intrusion
into my brain. to which i realised -
.
.
.

for the 4th time tis week,
i fuckin dreamt that i failed my Olevel math.
:(
***

my god daddy's comin' over on thursday
to celebrate a very advanced birthday with me.
(: its been really long since i last saw him,
even longer since i last saw god mama.
so iam highly anticipating for thursday to come.

and on friday, it'll be steamboat fiesta
with all my goodies. iam goin' out with qiangs
on saturday and then later meetin' others
after that. all is goood :D. i miss plently,
i guess friday will be a really good get together.
ahhhh. lim is happy if not for .........

anyway
yesterday was a day ive been waitin' for
for the longest of time. it was well worth it.
i bought 4 tops and leggins and
i had an awesome time with brens. (:
we were laughin' like anal thru out the
whole day and it feels awfully good to be
exposed to realll genuine jokes once again.
its an inside story.

haha, bcos seriously, iam tired of exuding
utmost delight and satisfaction
( its all a pretence actually ) infront of
xxXxXxX people who tells jokes that are
as cold as turkey, lol ! but idont really mind actually.
***

and thinkin' about it,
my period of time at ac is goin' ta be over soon.
i guess its 90 % confirmed that we are gettin'
back our results on the 5th of february, either that
or 7th .. or 9th. ahh, its just around there.
sigh, ive no idea whether t laugh or cry.
but il definitely miss the awesome time and
the even more more more awesome people there.

and while i was at ac on saturday,
i was filled with truckloads of appreciation
and gratefulness for the people who were
there at the stadium, it was good hearin'
them say things which i enjoy listening to,
but ..... nevermind. we will see how things goes.
(:
***

i miss grandpa. to be brutally honest,
iam sure that at least once in our life, we would
have assumed that old people lived in a world
of their own. they are often the ones who invents
fantasies and scenarios from lifetimes of joys and
sorrowns and disappointments/ and who would really
noe for sure what was real or what was just a fragment
of worn out imaginations ?.

still, we were told to believe them anyway.
they were thought to be the wiseones, wiser than
anyone one who were younger than them at least.
haha ! i always enjoyed listenin' to wat grandpa
had in store for me .. and i really do want to belive
that he is in heaven right now, watchin' over me
so that i can at least pass my maths. ( yawns * not again sara.)

lol. iam digressing alot.
il post up somm pics so you
wudn die of boredom. (:

over at ac.

(: one big family !

yeah man, iam offf :D.
till then, take care everyone !
7 days to my birthday.
woohoohooo !

and i miss zhangshernwhey. (:

love is love,
so shut up and kiss me ;D.

ps: for those who are attendin' the steamboat
fiesta on the 19th, the dresscode for that day is
retro. yes iam not kiddin,
so show me somm lovin' wontcha,
grab your stockings and white big hair bands
and bangles and big arty farty earrings !
retrofied retrofied retrofied. (:
alright, feel free to text me for more info :D.

2007-01-11T13:30:00.000+08:00

as i leaned against the vanity counter,
and inspect my chartreuse fingernails.
my visions blurred - my heart palpitating,
with excitement ? no it couldn be.
a sense of nostalgia tookover me.
i saw mommy carryin' tis innocent blur blockhead
baby - strokin her back/ burpin' her.
it was me i supposed, mom cooed at me,
and daddy clapped his hands to attract my attention.
sis was playin with her choo choot train.
while i .. reciprocated with a loud burp.

so maybe it wasn suppose to end like tis,
my thoughts suddenly went blank,
as if a black curtain was draped on top of them.
i heard the rustling of leaves,
once upon a december wind.
i bit my lips and fought back my tears.
i thought of all the things i could have done
to make my life a better one. the people i should
have loved more so that i wudn wail
and fight to listen to an empty heart beat
when they leave me for a ....
better place.
( or so , thats what we always want to believe )

my vision blurred once again,
and this time, i saw the backview
of someone awfully familiar. he had the cutest ear
* HINT HINT *
the smallest eyes and a mischevious smile.
and immediately, i felt a modicum of relief.

he fought away my fears. ( as usual )
shernwhey - who seriously made a different in my life.
u made my life right, u always make me feel impeccable.
and iamsorry that iam not equipped
with a hundred thousands vocab.
( i will read more books i promise )
iam unable to declare my undyin' love for u again and again,
in different ways and fanciful descriptions-cum-expressions.
but i will say tis, iam growin, my thoughts are changing ..
and i see you in my future / for the rest of my life.

please tell me love aint a see-saw.
if i love you more, it doesn mean you will love me less ..
right ? so does that mean i can call you whenever i want.
Can i have as many uninterrupted calls ?
and , Can i ... ask u to stay.

love is love,
so shut up and kiss me. (:
***

and so i crashed meridian's lecture for fun yesterday.
it was funn, awfully fun.
met up with louis and elyna and emily at first..
they were all like friend's friend's friend's friend.
so in the end, a whole group of us crashed meridian
altogether. haha.

lecture was giggly.
but we were very well behaved, i swear
and we learned maths ! (:
i saw yifang, kahaal and nuryani there.
primary school friends.
omgomgomg, smallsmallsmall world.
and did i mention before that shutian
knows junyi and vice-versa.
wad a coincidence righttt.
its seriously a small small world ! (:

after lectures, we went ta library to ...
" study " but it was 99 % talking and 1%
of browsin' thru notes and stuffs.
had to leave meridian for ac after that.
lilian was nice nough t send me to the bus stop.

got a call from fionachen and
flew to novena to meet her instead.
she had to pass me somm' stuffs ..
and i went off to ac. was so tired i dozed
off in the mrt, tank god xiangwei called
me in the nick of time, if not i wud have
missed the stop. hahah ! jackson darrell yuting
said my hair's nice, ( but ahlian-ish, wats new )
they claimed i looked like a middle eastern now.
(==.) zZ.

anw, had a good time interacting with those j1s
in ac, they were rather nice ..
those j2s who came gave me very good impressions
on themselves and great advices about JC and stuffs ..
even thou iam like all so
sure il never make it to a JC or ~~worst still a poly~~. arggg ..
anyway. my ohanas were just as pump up.

hohoho !

welcome tea ended at 6,
everybody was close to half dead so we
were practically crawlin' our way to the mrt.
by the time i reached home it was 7.
and i was deadeddeaddead beat.

oh and hello joanne !
are u happy about what itoldcha last night ?
(: (:

brens and shihui must be awfully
happy they got their jobs at taka (:
yay !

and iam happy beause my birthday
is coming in power pack 12 days time.
:D woohoohooo.

and can i say something again ;

I WANT A SKU BAG FOR MY BIRTHDAY !!!!! xD.

ps:/ those which u hang on ur shoulders.
xi xi xi ! (:

2007-01-09T13:41:00.000+08:00

AH ! (: helloooo. hahaha,
at jh's place right nowww.
using the computer, damn shuangs leh.
weehee heee, anyway ..
i manage t upload almost all the pictures already !

.
.
.

new years' eve.
ps: ( love was allaround)

my lookalike is inside (:

the cutest.

sayang sayang,

kiss !

mwahhh, more more more kissie weesie.

my turn to kissss.

BULEHHHH !

sleepin' child / he was lyin' on my laps.

readin' the magazineeee, soooo cuteee.

learnin' the steps. (: (:

gathering xD my favourite.

***

then came open house at ac. xD /

trust me wen i say shutian the walrus sleeps anytime anywhere.
( hes the one on the left )

there, told jaaa. he dozed off again just like that. HAHA.

oliver and chian chee got bored of callin' people in.

xiangwei ended up playin' othello.

XIANGWEI. (:

shutian dozed off again.

we celebrated jackson's birthday after that.
( which coincidentally falls on the 9th of january TODAY) xD.

happy birthday jacksonnnn ! :D.

ohanas ! :) :) (''v'')

ahhh, birthday in 14 days time.
wooohooohooo. can i say something.

I WANT A SKU BAG FOR MY BIRTHDAYYYY ! xD

ps / those which u hang on ur shoulders. (:
xi xi xi.

2007-01-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

(: okay, at lan shop again right now.
hahaha. damn man, my comp's takin'
forever to get well. sigh,
but its okayyyyyy ...
anyway ;

happy new year to one and all xD

yes, iam super laggy right i noe.
new year was freakin' eventful.
seriously sickly eventful.
cos i nearly died.
no kiddin .. i swear i nearly died.
i was vomitting and coughin,
n sufferin' from high fever for
3 consecutive set balls day.
i was very much sufferin' from
the same illness as brens. lol.
so i had to cancel all the plans,
tats includin bringin' my lil cousin
to his changkat changi sku and once
again, dragin the date to pertapis :(

but i really cudn help it,
i was bedridden for 3 days.
i was vomitting everysinglething i ate,
and for 3 whole days. all that i ate,
was 2 scoops of porridge. yeah man,
i lost 4 solid kg, i weigh a whopin 49.7 kg now.
and for those who noe me well nough,
they'd noe that ive a super weak body
immune system - my nose bleeds every
single month and i suffer from fever
every month before my period comes.
HAHA. weird right, but thats sara la.

yeah man, i was nearly admitted to the
hospital. but i didn want to, so i was on
heavy medication the whole week.
it was so terribleeee. but all's good now
so ima put the past behind
bcos -

sara's birthday is coming up in 15 days !

yeahhhh man. how cool is that,
ive got everything planned more or less.
id be celebrating my birthday from the
2oth - 24th of january. (: (:

and i love my ohanassss.
ac is soooo freakin' awesome.
fionachen,olivermoey,XIANGWEI,shutianwalrus,
yuting,calvin,chianchee(muscleman),jacksonandsaralimmmm !
hahaha. awesome peopleeee.
and yes \ i njoyed myself thoroughly during
their open house, it was realllly funn.
damn, ima miss them soooo much laaa.
and i saw xxXXxxxXx ( branda noes who. ) xD.
which is like woah woah hooo ho haa hahaha.
and i saw a no, of my primary sku frens tooo ..
damn man, how much they have all grown and changed.
they were the ones who recognized me ..
i cudn recognized them at allll.
raymond,aisha, melissa. woooo, so tall pretty handsome :).

and then again,
it is true wen they say all skus
have their own bunch of jerks. cos i met them,
and iam glad jackson and fiona were there.
i was ratherrr .... taken aback. but uhh
nvm (: i lovemy ohanaaas.
pictures will be up soon once the kind soul
ngjunhao sends me ! :D.

yeah.
i thank those who replied me so warmly n lovingly
wen i asked if i had the honour to invite them
to my steamboat fiesta on the 20th (:
they all said things like .
" anything for the princess. "
" even if it means sackin' my boss, id take off "
" die die also will crawl there. "
" no u don have the honour to invite me, but il go bcos its u. "
" sara birthday u don ask i ownself also go. "
HAHAH. so loved so loved so loved.

anyway, for all those who loves me ,
please make ur 21st january free tooo.
heeee. iam celebratin' with my ohanas
on the 22nd januaryyy. and 23rd and 24th
is for someone really special. (:
u noe who la, i don nid to say.
heh.

and i did try my best to portray myself
as a really mature girl,
so i can say things like.
' i don nid presents, as long as i ve love from
everyone, and as long as every one comes ...
id be happy. " but sigh, i cudnt. hahaaa.
its bin a perennial problem since longlongago.
but ahh, il be nice / iam serious, just come n njoy
yourself on the 2oth and 21st its good nough !
but of cos, buy me something if u have extra cash !
hahahha.

I AM KIDDING.

ok, iam super excited for sara's 17th !
(: ((: bye all !

ps/ bren's a florist right now, how cool is that,
she faces those beautiful flowers every single dayy.
ahhhhhhh. haaaa, brenssss can i buy red roses from u !?
:D.

2006-12-30T16:52:00.000+08:00

iam back ! with all the pics that ive
been wantin' to post up for the longest
of timeeeee. yay yay yay !
ok, so not all. but well most of it xD
weeheee. my hols have been awesome !
ive been goin' out everysingledayyy
together with brens and different groups
of people. ahhh ..

say yesterday, i just celebrated zhen's bdae.
my pride and joy and honour. (: (:
we went kbox and singsanglaughlaugh.
reached home at night n was totly drained.
but twas a great celebration and alll, weee.
ive been tryin' very hard to restrain myself
from goin' out that much. cos iam sure my parents
arent that happy, they are just keepin'
to themselves about my latenights and constant outings.
shud spend quality time with them :)
plus goin out = spendin' $ so yeah,
not wise ! (:

and ive been draggin' the date of goin t pertapis,
damn i don like this, inefficency.
so its quite set that iam goin over
there next week, probably on a monday.
iam meetin' piaks for movie on tuesday
before she starts working. practice at ac
will resume once again on wednesday *
wadda joyyyy. my zooo, i can finally
see them again xD.
n on thursday iam pickin up gan-didi from his
new new new schooool ! (: haha.
so for now, iam only free on friday next week :)

my piano kiddos told me that they
have friends who have magic powers.
they say their magical powers stands at lvl 2
and that they are trainin' very hard to lvl up.
ahhh, wat cuties.

n i think iam proby spendin' new year's eve
with my relatives from my mommy side (:
cos new year's eve coincidentally falls
on hari raya haji toooo. (:
so iam goin' over to my auntie's house
with every one else plus my cousins !
yessss , reunion once againnnn :D woohoo.

okay, nough' talk. here are more of them pics.
courtesy of brens, zhen and xw ! xD.

weee :D.

iloveyoumydearest. (:

zhen's bigdayyy :D.

brandon the handsome. (:

at xw's church, the day she danced so beautifully xD.

random pics.

thats the 99 roses i was talkin' about.
so pretty pretty toootsy righttt.
damn, my sis is soo lucky.
and mom bought for me the bio essence
eye care gel ( top left )
bcos she complained that my dark circles
are gettin' more n more prominent.
sucha sweetie right. hahaha ..
thats brens and me ( top right )
coverin ourselves from top and bottom
for fear of which creeper we gon meet next.
ahhhh .. haha and i love my nailsss.

yeah, more or less, these are all the pics.
and iam eyeing for a new handphone ;
lg chocolate red wine.
which literally means the red one.
yes i noe, it came out long long agooo.
but supersuper freakin' beautifullll.
stumbled upon the pic one sunday day
and i fell in love with it immediately.
but lots of my frens are tellin' me the functions
are not as appealin' as how it looks.
but me being me, iam always priortizing
their designs than functions wen buyin handfones.
but ahhh, lil memory means i cant take
much pics. sooo ..
iam gon consider again xD.

aight, gigantinc post.
iam off to eat seowchoon with brens.
take care everybody :)

till then, xD
make a great starttt to your new year -
work towards all your new year resolutions !
(: (:

2006-12-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

haha. can u believe it ..
iam bloggin at somm lan shop right now !
z ! see the state which iam reduced to.
haha ... my comp is wiling its time away makin' love.
so yeah.

anyway, krissmas eve was the yamasaki atomic bomb.
haha .. the lightings at town were as usual ;
sometime worth hoo-haaa ing about.
but i wasn there till midnight.
i was over at ps. laughin' my day away.
haha, and i love monday - the teddy bear.
:) :) :) the colonge on it ... i swear, it must
be somm kinda aphrodisiac. seriouslyyy !
super nice laa. haha. i sleep with it at night ok.
twas a krissmas present,
and my favourite one actually (''v'') yeahh.

i stil remember devourin the gianormous burger
at carls jnr during krissmas eve. was so full
i nearly vommitted. haah ..
flew to dhoby ghaut after that t meet the rest.
and went home after that t celebrate w my family.
i so want t post picts up.
ive thousands of them BUT yeah,
circumstances says no :(

never mind. hahah ...
i tonned on krissmas day.
was entertainin' somm brats thru' texting.
and just yesterday, went over for somm
chruch performance thing. (:
to support shijia and my hunnyxw.
but shijia wasn there. lol ,
and4yearol brandon is freakin' handsome.
wadda do, mixbloods are like that.
HAHA.

damn i love tis lan shop.
they play the nicest reggae songs.
weeeee ..

i saw xiangwei and calvin at cine the other time.
xiangwei still looks like a hamster. ahhh ..

i want to post pics up.
i want to show yaul the bouquet of 99 roses
my sis got for her bdae ! its beauuuutiiiifullllll.

which reminds me,
my birthday is coming upppp !
don wory, my wishlist will be up soon. hahaha ..
weeeeee. iam goin' to the zoo zoo zooo,
with youu youu and youuuu !

til then my friends,
stay happy :D.

muacheeface makes me happy,
hes my blessin' wen ima stressin'

2006-12-21T11:51:00.000+08:00

ahh cobwebs in blog ! (:
haha. gosh, i realised i haven
bin bloggin for 10 solid days.
pardon me. (:
but i was having a really great time
over at krismas island.
(: i visited mr. santaklaus in his crib
and showed him my krissmas list!
weeeeeee.

and i assured him that ive been a really really
nice girl/daughter/friend/student/girlfren/
this year ( welll ,, ok almost (((:
and that il continue to be one if he gives
me everything i want in my xmas list.
so yay ! (:

limalynna will be celebrating her
birthday in 2 days time ! shes coming
home with bags and bags and bags of present
these 2 weeks. lol, ive had my fair share of fun
rummaging thru' her stuffs and alll.
mmh, and i came to realise that shes by far,
the only sister i noe who doesn mind her younger sister
taking her stuffs without permission.
weeee !

ahhhh. i love holidays, oh yes i do.
ha, i love sitting on the couch for hours
and read a good book while iam at home.
nothing beats that. and i love to shop,
i love to spend money, i love to take pictures.
so yeah, if u asked me if i have done anything
productive during the holidays,
the only 2things close to it, is that i visited the
library and that iam teachin piano, lol, besides that ...
nothing liao lor.

:D.
for ive been occupyin myself with outings and dates
with my deariesss .. say next week.
iam gon go fishing, cycling, kite flying , steamboating,
not forgetting pertapis. (:
and feeohna, we are gon kayak w the whole zoo right !
Oh yes, brens u heard me, every outing of mine = your outing too.
and your outing = mine. hehehe.
damn, brens .. can we act less like a couple ?!

plus plus plus, next week is my zhen's birthday !
weeeeehaaaaaa ! and iam headin down to town w mdm gang.
on krissmass eve to catch - curse of the golden flower.
weee ! jayyy ! andddd don bother, iam not stayin'
for countdown, nah-uh .. iam not gon get molested
by the peepal there. haha .. plus i made a pact
with my parents, that i wudn go for countdown at town
until iam 18 years old and another pact with shern,
that i wudn go for countdown at town all my life
unless iam with him,
or with a guy fren we both can trust.

yups ! so , i really think id probably head
down to chinese gardens during krissmass eve
and play sparkles with everybody else.
:)

i miss tons of people, especially fi, xiangwei,
shutian, yuting, bixia and darrell. damn,
i miss laughin' with them. hahaha.
and so many other people ..
thousands of them, i can literally feel the distance.
but its ok ! friends remain and never can end ! :)

iam outta here,
il blog again wen my computer
stops acting like superman,
zapping power all around ! (:

ps: iam goin back for cca open house tomro,
cant wait to see victoria and everybody else
from orchestra. wooohooo, ok. iam watchin'
death note and night at the museum already.

someone is irritating me like shit, hittin me with
the bolster. @$(&&%#@$(#)@#!)#(
SO BYE !

oh yes oh yes,

merry krissmas *

spread the love around everyone !
stayyyyy happpy :D:D.

2006-12-11T15:48:00.000+08:00

tis' da mutha mutha remix.

z. comp's down ..
wadda bitch.
currently using my fren's laptop
so weird ... haha.
but anyway ..
days had been great ! (:
celebrated mommy's birthday yesterday.
i cud see she was really happy,
shes sucha darling.
hoho !

bought an ipod nano for her.
and we bought her out to newyorks to
eat. (: cud literally see her smiling away
wen she opened the gift.
awww ..

prettier than diamonds uare, mother. / ma' love.

my giantenormous burger.

i skipped dinner and breakfast and lunch
the next day after eatin that, damnn fulll.
and damn fattt, but watevers. WEEEE.
and i cant wait to meet up with my yayakults
and makan partners tormo
woohoooo ! they are my sexy lovesss.
so long since i last met all
of them and seriously sat down to talk.
heeeee.

anyway, i cut my hair yesterdayyyy.
mmh, no comments. haha ..
ive frindge now ( due to peer pressure. z! )
and its lookin' so weird.
:( nvm, it will grow i guess. ha !
but i feel so much lighter after i snipsnipsnip.
my hair's soooo thick, i swear i lost about
1kg after they cut off my hair.
weeeeeeee.

seeeeee.

aiya, nvm ..
it will grow saraaaa. (:

anddd,
shern's havin' his exams really soon.
ahhh, nvm, lookin' on the bright side,
i can meet him up after his examsss.
so yay !

its rainin' banana and pancakes right now.
n i just watched saw 3.
shitsuckssuperknngrosss ----- z ...
n iam scared, theres thunderation. !

ok, nough of nonsense !
take care everyone.
be happpy !

(: (:

2006-12-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

more than words. (:

i was feelin' all grouchy tis morn'
until i met branda and eunice,
cos i had a really bad dream last night ..
i dreamt i got a huge number for my
L1r5. sigh, its terrible, horrifying.
i woke up cryin' :( but i was so gladd
twas just a dream, and word has it that if u do
not want ur dream to come true,
u have to tell every single soul about it.
so i am ! (: (:

and i feel so lag.
up til now, i haven even
seen the shadow of the levi guy
brens havin' the hots for.
z.

anyway anyway anyway,
manU won the match between benfica !
yay ! ( * does kallang wave ) :D.
n ya noe i have this love/hate thing
for daddy bein' the alarm clock.
hes seriously a man of his words,
wen u ask him to wake u up in the
middle of the night for a soccermatch.
he does it, and he does it really well.

daddy : wake up, its 4 !
me : * sleeepZzZz.
daddy : wake up wake up its 430 !
me : * snoresZZZZ.
daddy : daddy's stomach reall pain, save me !!
me : * snoressZZZ.
daddy : OI, * tickles feet, manU's goalie's charged for takin drugs !
me : HUH. * sits up on bed.
daddy : oh my god, why did i even raised u up,
a goalie's more important than ur own daddy ?!

HAHA, watthehella.
he's kiddin' of course about the drugs part,
manU = powerpack = never need boosters.
and wow, did i just blogged a whole part
about daddy-cum-alarm clocks :D.
HOOOOO.

christmas is coming sooon !. (:

and i miss everything about sku man.
especially the peepal thereee. weeeee.

iam hungry ! iam callin' for macs delivery !
iam cravin' for macs .. and shern. (:

and liting's come back tomro. (:
joanne's comin' back reall sooon tooo.
yay, many things to be happy about.
iam gon go count my blessgs now ! (:
u tooo ! :D.

2006-12-06T18:37:00.000+08:00

" the pass we inherit,
the present we create ;
But for those who hope, work and play,
The Best is Yet To Be. "

***

sigh, it never did came across my mind
that ties would bind so well together.
i dont want to have any attachment
if possible .. but nvm ..
i will take each step as it comes. (:

darrell thinks i should start crashin' classes.
WA KA KA. i would. i might. i should.
and ive been gigglin non stop since
morning, i`ono why. somethings just tickles
me sooo easily.

i had a walk down memory lane a moment ago
and i was reminded of something really funny.
there was once i stayed' over at em's house whilst
she was still in s'pore bcos we wanted to
" do a project " ha. u noe wadda mean.
and i remembered her mom askin her .

her mom " why she stayin over, cannot go home meh ."
em " errrr. just for one day. "

her mom then stared really hard at me,
gosh .. her mom totly has this piercing stare
that makes ur nipples tremble la. I swear!
its horrifyingggggg :p lol lol lol.
but still, i stayed over and needless t say,
we ended up watchin' vcds all night long (:

OH, C's confirm transferring to maristo already.
z, superman are goin' to miss u like
chicken mcnugget and nasilemak ! (: (:

andandand,
i miss shern like assing rat.
hello shern ! just wana let u noe that after
loving / kissing / cuddling / quarrelling / wrestling /
u for over 2 years .. ive finally perfected timbaland's
NOPE ways. HAHAHA ( inside joke * )
ya noe i totally dig you, dig your retardedness,
dig your dragonboat and dig your asshole. weee !

i think iam thinkin' alot ...
hm, ok BYE ! :D.

2006-12-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

been so long since i last indulged in these.
(:

wee.

:)

(:

ha. neoprints ..
they used to be something so
close to my heart. i guess i must have spent
up to a few hundred bucks or more
on these kawaii konichiwa machines
during my younger days. ha.
all these are like ... so ol sku man.
darn, sara's growing up so fast.

z. i can totlly imagine myself 50 years
down the road - watchin my grand children
play while i take out my shoe box of fotographs
with sepia tone loving and start rattlin'
all those good ol days with my children.
wah lao, i cant imagine people calling
me nai nai or auntie leh.

hm, but anyhows.
i wana be as nice and as perfect as my mom,
and as graceful and as understandin' as my grandma.
(:

hoooo ! and lookin' on the brighter side of life,
its just another phase which we all have
to go through in life.
so yeah ! (: heh.
i guess brens and shihui are all doin'
very well at their respective workin'
places right now. brens lookin' super cute
and auntyish in that uniform of hers whilst shihui
looked just like the owner of the shop
shes tendin' for. awww , i have to visit
them again reall sooon apart from today !
:D.

slept at arnd 5am yesterday
and woke up at arnd 2pm today.
z, makes me feel like ive wasted half
of my day. haha ..
i was suppose to meet my chums
at 230pm. but wads new,
that is soo saraa.
one whos never with a sense
of punctuality.
ok, that aside.

day was just like any other.
(: great, relaxin' enjoyin' every
moment of it. heh.
had another student today and
shes a reallly cute one indeed.
ha, she came to my house with
tears in her eyes. :( its sooo saddening
at first ok, lol. i cant remember
wat she was cryin' for .. i only
remembered her sayin' lil brother, wombat
and barbie dolls. jees man,
wtf is a wombat ah ?!

haha, anyway ..
i cheered her up with oreos and milk !
and i taught her how to cross her eyes. (:
yay. niceyniceynice.

seee, shes happy.
and iam happy tooo. (:

i guess iam givin' stormZ a miss tomro.
i dono, thers just somethings which i feel
i serioulsy have to sit down and think about ..
... ... ...

ok goodnights ! (: (:

2006-12-03T02:08:00.000+08:00

kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep *
iam in love wid ur grace, ur essence, ur style,
ur everything.

its 2.12 am right now.
watchin' the match btwn
manU and middlesbrough. (: (:
n needless to say,
manU's leading by 1 ball ! :D
weeeeee.

hadda really tiring day today.
n guess waaad, i own a zoo. ha !
ive a hamster, a walrus and a hunny bear
in my zooo and they are very very friendly !

ahhhh ..
makes me smile just thinkin'
about it. ac's peeepal are awesome,
they really are. really really make u feel
like one of them, esp all those whom
i noe (: (: yes .. but i noe my standards.
iam not puttin' hopes in anything
bcos iam well aware that iam not a single pointer type
but hm, iguess we will never say No to pickin'
up new skills yes.

its funny how we can all blend so well together.
albeit the different backgrounds, the big difference
in sku, ( neighbourhood / prestigious ) ..
they never did pose as problems in our socializing.
weee !

met my lil kiddos for piano after that.
naughty naughty very active.
but there were afew who were shy like crazyyyy ..
those new comers played with such fake
passion that i seriously cudn stand the look on their faces.
i was lookin' at them and gigglin' like shit.
and even thou i hate to say it,
i cant help but admit they seriously sounded like cats
running across a piano .. but eh.
discordant hymns can lead to
new and catchy preludes too i guess. ha.

and i found ajob which is home-based.
all i nidda do is to type advertisements for companies
and il then get cheques sent to my bank account.
uh huh, simple as that .. plus, $ is good !
reallly coool yes. weee. iaso think so ! (:

theres goin to be the legendary stormZ on tuesday.
i cannot wait for it ! (: (:

and shern's so sweeet like hunnysugarcoatedcaramel.
cos he cancelled his outin' with his frens
just to play o2jam with me. zhen is also another one.
(: yes. iam o2jam siao liao ! weeee.

limtaohuay's lvl 7 ! :D.

said huang hou nai nai ;
i didn buy 4d today just so that i could
give those money i used for buyin' to my darling sara.

awwwwwwwww.

she made me cry big time cos
of the silly things she said. but m !
i dont wana think about it ! :D.

2006-11-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

" id buy a bundle of roses for you.
put a plastic rose in the middle and
tell you that id love you till the
rose in the middle withers.
good night sara. (: "

tis was wad greeted me to a brand
new thursday morning :)
wadda great start to my day yes.
sigh, my frens always comes up
with the sweetest sweetest thing,
* grins.

so, i accompanied brens to the docs today.
her throat was givin' her alot of props.
and that zidiot's gon start work reall sooon.
i dono whether t laugh or cry. lol ..
but anyhow, to branda ;
please click here -
www.lohbranda.blogspot.com
its for you. (: (:

accompanied her to somm places after that
and i went ta her house t chill.
played psp alll thaa way.

twas really exciting lol.
and super funny how we
both got busted :p.

digressing ..
i had my fair share of a 100% perfect life again last nyt.
not the first time, but still ..
it was just as orgasmic. weeeee ! (: (:

ahh, the elements to a 100% perfect life :D.

and guesss waaaaaad.
ive to share somth w yaul.

this is lim daddy.

and lim daddy is super macho! doncha agree ?.
lol ! iactually wanted t take a pic of him
doin' henna on his own hand but ...
i got more than wad i was expectin'
power la. soo macho like nacho like that.
weeeeeheeeee. no wonder my momm
fell in love with him. (: (:

oh yes.
i sense an eventful weekend coming up.
tutoring piano, yoga, workshop, ac-orchestra.
i don think i can squeeeze all in one day ..
so i might have to forgo yoga :(.
which sucks toes. but nvmmm.
iam sure my day wud still be fun. (:
and iam puttin' on pounds.
z.

OHya oh ya oh yaaaa ..
o2jam's a bitch nomore ! (: (: (:
zhen's gon play with me later.
shern aso. yay yay. yay.
iam a limjammer ! (: (:

i miss shern like chickenmcnuggetnasilemak.
ok ! off to make sommone's day again.
its super saraaaa on her mission :D.

2006-11-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

i think ive the cutest lims' family in the world.
ha. can i share share share with u whyyy (: (:

mommsie bought this henna thing from
lil india and she asked dad to draw them
designs for her on her hand.
cos daddy is a v. creative person.
( or so, thats wad my family thinks )
so she told dad.

she " can u help me with the henna designs ? "
he " oh .. wad kinds u want ? "
( dad totly ve no idea how those designs
looked like and he actually said the
henna looked like recycled shite
(==.)
she " those flowery designs. "
he " ok, i draw on a paper u see which ones u like ."

mom was very excited.
i cud see her grinnin' from ear to ear.
but once daddy passed her the piece
of paper he drew on,
her smile dropped.
like immediately dropped. haha ..

cos u see, tis was wat daddy gave her.

i was rollin' on the floor laughin like shite
wen i saw that piece of paper.
look at the flower at the left hand corner.
! wtffff , hahahahahahaha.
where got designs like that one ?! :p
wah kao, buey ta han laaa, damn cute. (: (:

anyway anyway anyway,
my airen found a job. ha !
hello brens; please share ur salary w me
in the ratio 6:4 okay? (: heeeee.
n i finally saw shihui after
2340234902398 years.
she still as white ... lol.
and shes an awesome gf.
sigh, girls do the sweetest
things for their boyfrens.
sommtimes, iwished iam a guy.
then sex willl definitely be damnnn gooood.
weeeee.

anyway,
comin back to my day.
it was awesome.
'thou half of the day i was
goin thru a flux of emotions.
like britney-going-thru-divorce-kinda-mood.
HAHA but wtf, nvm.
shant go into details. (:

i received msgs of lovelovelove last night.
i woke up smilin' to my fone for a good 5 minutes
; readin' thru all those msgs before officialy
jumpin' out of bed ! (: heh heh.
ok, o2jam's a bitch.
i downloaded it last nyt, waited patiently for
1 hour and guess waaaad.
cannot connect to server.
chickenmcnuggetnasilemak ...
nvm, will try it again later. ! :D.

Ok. wadda longlongpost. (:
so BYE !

2006-11-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

here comes the bride (:

not the perfect dish, but prepared by the perfect duo.
(: (:
***

ok. its spaghetti if u cannot
make out what it is ! :p
and its super duper mighty power
delicious hokayy :D.
i swear .. i don mind having 12
servings of that same plate of spaghetti
complete with minced meat and eggg pls.
aw aw aw. even thou i feel kinda sore ..
i still can feel it in my fingers and in my toes.
love love l.o.v.e is alll around ! (: (:

iam happy happy happy today.
(: ive lil kids askin me if they can sign
up for piano lessons .. all tanks to my
aunties who introduced their colleagues's
children to me. haaaa.
yay, i smell cold hard cash rollin in ! :p
and tons and tons of funnn with those little
kids around ! trust me, they ARE
alotalotalot of fun. teachin' em' piano
is anything but a hassle. i do learn from
them tooo ! (: the only boo boo is that ..
i might not be able to attend yoga
as frequently as before :(

but nvm.
il still work out ! :D.

andandand,
i was just hangin around today
wen i saw liting .. i guess i was really
near her house area .. cos
she wasjust preparin' to go out.
lol .. shes soooo light light light,
i carried her and lifted her
up to my back effortlessly.
(: (: (: soooo super cute.

hm, ive got alot of random things
to say, so pls pardon me. (: (:
becos u noe !
i just realised something ..
while pat n me n lorra were talkin
bout birthdays ... we suddenly
went to the topic of surprises.

haha ... den we all realised ..
how bad wen we always
have to fake O' .. you noe like.
wen sommone gives u a present
which u seriously do not fancy ..
but still have to go ;

" omg omg, i... i never expected ... its gorgeous
its .. its ..... unbelivable. OH my GOd !! "
in that totly squeaky high pitched voice.

yeaaa. that kinda thing. HA.
hm, ok i admit,
i must have done that at least 5 times
in my lifee but trust meee.
if i seriously unfancy something,
my facial expressions will definitely
give me away. weeeeeeeee.

ok random.
so next !
i went to sweee chooon with
branda today. :)
we piggybacked each other all the way
to swee chooon. wakaka.
and shes lying thru her yellow teeth ..
i nv cry wen she play for me
that piece of song although i do admit
it was really melodious . ha !
sara choochoo and branda train ..
season 2 episode #16 hor !
airen (:
***
to xiuwen ;
hahahahaha. who wna write love letters to you
huh huh huh huh huh :) :) :) don always use this
kinda dirty methods to confess ur love to me la.

to siewchen ;
zhen zhen zhen (: u are just sooo nicen i love
you to the lil bits and bites bites bites !

to shihui ;
ni hui lai leeee. wo hen kuai leeeee ! (: (: (:

2006-11-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

mineminemine ! (: (:

ohmygoddd.
aint that pair of boots so alluring.
weeeeeee.
the prettiest things ive ever seeeen.

hm, so yeah !
was on the fone till arnd 4am last night.
aint tired at all.
ive no idea why. lol !
to think i actually woke up at 9am
this morning. yes,
iam amazed.

and daddy says he's givin me full
support wen i sign up for
my drivin license next year !
godgodgod, how cool is that.
a driving license cannn.
weee, that means i can buy my dream car
and drive alll rnd singapore with all my lovelys
before i hire my very own chauffeur.
aw aw aw ..
how sweet is daddy.

and my parents are allowin'
me to work tooo. wakaka ..
never thought they wud allow ..
cos me being me ..
they are always soooo afraid
id get myself into trouble or get myself hurt.
haha, iguess they understand iam
old nough right now ! 16 years ol kay.
mai siao siao. weee !
(: (: so yeah,
gon job - hunt with the 3 musketeers
reallly soooon. BUT !
iam still givin' piano lessons durin weekends ..
yeah ! :D :D :D.

full force week again next week.
er , have i already mention ?
tuesday, iam most proby goin' for this
workshop about knowin' urself
better and about life, yanoe.
and on wednesday .. yeah, haha.
il say where iam goin wen the times
come but iam sooo excited :p
yoga lesson proly resumin next sat
at ms chia house so yay !

oh xiuwen, wen is our tampiness date.
and ive something for uuu ! weee wee.

gon hit the beach next thursday
and tan myself for 23240239842 hours.
i cant stand it wen my skin tone's
not anywhere near brown. z !
n yes ! mummy is smart, she said ;

her " you want to dye ur hair hor ? "
me " yesss. n cut it and highlight ! :D "
her " all expenses by me if u are goin to
dye it in any colour except purple "

so you see,
iam in a dillema now.
sigh, she feels that purple
is disgustin ...
is it really ? oh wells nvm.
we wil see about it.

chelsea and man U match tonight
at 12 am. (: (: (:
go manU go man U go ! :D.

i miss shernn !
and shihui and piaks :(
come bak soooon.
:D.

2006-11-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

2.01am

sara's tired ! (: but happy.
ive got my next week's outings
all planned out already. ha !
andandand .. ive got my future planned.
.. next week, iam goin' out with shern
for a movie and we will live happily
ever after - the END !

wakaka. and alsooo ..
iam goin back for yoga lessons
next weeeek. weeeee :) :)

great day out today.
ilove siewzhen cos she always
make me smilesmilesmile.
and bcos she buys flowers for me.

awwwwwwwww.

ps: // siewfong is retarted .. :P
and shona says my laughter is contagious.
(==.) wats new.
" hi my name is SHAWN, surname is NA"
together, iam SHAWNNA. (: (:

oh yesohyes,
adam & eve deserved their
respective positions. (:
service was goood,
as happenin' as all the other
churches which i visited.
as usual .. i learnt alot.
but hm,
its all up to oneself ... to make
decisions in their own life.
(: (:

iam vvery very happy
with my life the way it is right now.
i wont say its perfect ..
but ... hm, iam just happy with it.
ive all the love ,
from all the different people i want.
finally. finally ..
i feel complete all over again.

cannot wait for 23 january to come. (:

ok, iam off to make sommone's day !
so gooonyts n takecare peeepals .. (:

ps : // anyw, dad's been real sarcastic these days.
i guess its bcos of all my latenights
and constant outings every single day.
i heard him say.

him " awake so early huh ? "
me " yeahh ... er dad ? "
( i just wanted to ask wats for breakfast )
and guess wat he said.
him " ya, atop the fridge. "
me " huh ? "
him " uare askin if u cud go on n that u nid money right ? "

hahha.
so cute ! (: